sunbird

win liao win liao

guys are a thousand n 1 percent more bagua den gers.
i'm innocent >_< >_< >_< >_<
sians. maybe tomolo gotta fly to hai nan dao to see my grandfather...heard he damn ill. n my aunt's damn sad bout it haiz...dunoo la. why the world so messy 1...-groans-...aiya anything la damn tired now just reached home...must go chong liang le! den gotta pack my luggage...sob sob sob it'll be freaking cold over there la...sIanZzZz...go there n hibernate le...
nitenitex

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 1/30/2004 11:27:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

stop luffing!

haha. AI was pretty boring in the beginning, din understand why they had to eliminate those whom i thought were quite good already haha. perhaps they just aren't the best and haven't got the x-factor haha...anyway the most entertaining part was the end la. totally hilarious ahahz...hAha...dunoo why people who can't sing insist that they can. and when the judges tell them straight in the face that they seriously can't sing, instead of walking out of the door they start singing all over again, hoping that they can redeem themselves haha... gosh. *kill me*. haHa...but i felt there were pretty good ones around la. :) anyways. looking towards the nex episode haha...n i realised that singapore's standard is not even an ant compared to america's ah well. haha... i think if yanzi goes for the AI audition, she might not make it either...or maybe she will cos she's got a damn unique voice... :)

i think ahdi will make it hahaz. heeeez. strong powerful voice he's got...heh heh heh...ahdi :)

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 1/29/2004 11:52:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

.hmmmmx.

today's a really good day -flashes a wide grin-
damn funny and i had a GREAT time disturbing michelle heh heh heh!!!
i got her all tramatised hahaha that's the power of jane!!!!
xiao xin happy birthday to u!!!!!! :P
then after school...we went to bukit timah hawker centre to eat carrot cake damn famous one leh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =))))
somehow i just feel damn slack and damn relaxed tonite
maybe cuz it's the first day in the week or even, first time after a long long time, that i'm home after school. it's my off-day from tuition *grins*
came home and played the piano for an hour or so...cuz i think the piano tuner came today to tune it la. my big cousin said the piano was out of tune... haha guess i'm not sensitive to such stuff but in any case i just love playing the piano heh heh heh~!!!!!:))))
so yeah the piano did sound different today~~~

it's week4 another 5 weeks to block test 1. hope i can do well den can see energy :) as a reward la. ahdi :)))). and oso, must give parents and tuition teachers something rewarding la. dun wan anyone to worry about me :) so hope i can just do well for the j2 topics...j1 topics i can just go and eat shit. bleahs :D

yUpp..quite surprised i was checking my mail today den received some e-mail from some butler university in indiana one. and oso from stanford university on some gifted youth thing. tink they got me thru collegeboard but i was thinking my that SATS oso not say very good wat. anyway i feel good bout it la. university approach me though it's bo miah one...butler i mean. hope UCLA come find me heh heh heh. i dream on la. maybe i'll talk to my aunt about this soon...again...maybe tmr...i feel like taking up the EPGY thingy by stanford but anyways. we'll see la. sigh then again i duno if i should retake my SATS...i very sian diao must take time out to study for it...later not as good very lao kui. dunoo la. >_<...anyway shan't worry about this :)
it's the day for american idol. share with u some of the hilarious stuff later okies!!!!! hope can see some chiobu/shuaige with great voices tonite.
last nite was a flop.

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 1/29/2004 09:04:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

MIRACLE

tonight's the night when the pig doesn't want to sleep
haha. :) just feel like staying uppp and rot away the time... :)
dun ask me why it's just fun to do this sometimes
just sit back and relax and enjoy the blues of the night hahaz..
and maybe fall asleep soon after
today very malu on bus again :(
usually shui will be nex to me and i'll just lean on her and sleep
and so she claims: lean my whole weight on her..and she thinks it's heavy haha...at least that shows my head not hollow heeee :p
today i was on the bus alone...den i just sleep lor...TIRED MA
and i just knocked into the person nex to me for a few times hahaha..
damn pai seh...hope i won't see her again... :P

sigh, been suffering from headaches lately...think it's migraine
damn sickening...i thought i'll get them when the sun's blazing hot
nowadaes rain rain rain i still get the headaches...damn kns
i really hate being sick grrr.

anyways. :) i ran 3 rounds today hahahhaa!!! and so did sharon!
proud of her ehhhh!!! :))
it's 29/jan already...xiaoxin's b'day!! hope she likes our present for her
heh heh heh!!! :)...and we decided that it's time we stop buying cakes and get apple strudels instead...which is relatively healthier than cakes since it doesn't have cream on it la.
still on the battlefield to slim down. HEH HEH HEH
we will succeed ok!!!!

anyways. can feel aunty gang not aunty gang liaoz
we slowly progressing to become tai tai gang le!!!! yeah heh heh heh
only yanfang ownself be aunty la
sharon, xin, yy and me...we all promote to become taistais liaoz
oso okay lah, got 4 people le...khakis to play mahjong heh heh heh
yanfang...take ur time okies!!! ;p
and of course, not to forget our angmoh manager...michelle!!! haha
that reminds me...we actually listened to one of our chem lectures lately la.
so proud of ourselves haha...first time do qns i noe which page to flip to
HAHA...it really has never happened to me before...
it's minimal talking, maximum enjoyment

i'm bored bored bored bored bored. can't wait for tmr night's american idol!!
can see how those people walk into the audition room and make a freakin fool out of themselves...shrugs. i mean some of them just CAN'T sing, but they insist that they can. GOODNESS. well, as i was saying..some of them...they've got a nice voice but just look at the way they carry themselves u just wanna roll on the floor and start giggling...damn comical. aiya just dun have the X-factor...maybe nex time i should start some talentsearch or something too. can criticise those bu zi liang li people...still remember one of them just keep asking simon paula and the plump funny chap to give her a 2nd,3rd,4th chance. kns can't sing den can't sing la what's your problem keep asking for chances...so irritating but not bad la. must have such people then the show nice...seriously haven't heard any voice that i really like... :)

sians...just feel like typing and typing and typing... :) anyway i made my chem teacher luff today...guess she was in a freaky good mood today.. :) i was caught for not doing my tutorials (again...as usuaL)..den i tole her i tried...and she was like doubtful about it cos it seemed as if i din even try(which was the truth la)...den i just sae "yeah lohx...i see the qn very long i very scared..." den she just luff haha. anyway mrs' lee's a damn good teacher, at least i understand what she's saying. and as what mich and i agreed upon, she's confident of herself, she noes what she's teaching and talking, and of course, she makes absolute sense. so that gives us MUCH MUCH MUCH assurance of her capabilities as a teacher...just ignore the fact that she's in the discipline committee la huh... :P i head to toe oso like got break school rules like tt...nvm la.. :) no wonder she was damn confident that she can push our chem to A-standard. cool. i used to be chao zai in chem...now damn kns...maybe chem was the easiest subject last time hahaz..
kinda miss literature now :(..i miss mockingbird...i miss boo radley he's my fav character :)))) still remember i cried after my o-level lit paper...and my friends all thought i was insane:) but then again, i guess i was...i mean i think i can never enjoy another novel as much as "to kill a mockingbird"..it's just the most enlightening novel that can pull my very tender heartstrings to such an extent...suppose this novel really taught me a lot of things...:)...all the themes about friendship...giving and loving...human nature...like discrimination..wow...i just love this great novel :)

it's 1 am and i'm still wide awake...dunno why. :) anyways i wanna get new track shoes...heh heh heh. but abit she bu de to buy with my ang pow money q:(...my mortal and angel buying me the energy album...that's really nice and sweet of them...but i think i wanna buy it myself...it's energy's album....miss ahdi...miss toro... hope i dream of them soon again!!!!!! heeeeee :p

yEp guess i'll just stop here...time to sit back and relaxxxxxx

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 1/29/2004 12:56:00 AM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

dumz.

i finally heard ji xu by e4.
bet it's for toro...
kinda sad...but jarnei must control!!!!
yUp...my dieting plan abit fail today again
i stuffed so much snacks down at night again lohx.
nvm nvm nvm nvm
i still have a lot of time heeez :D
feeling abit tired le. good nite :)))

die. forgot to write letter to my angel
TARZAN! wo dui bu qi ni. hahaha...
crap up one letter tmr la...gEEz.. :D

gOODNITE!!!
nono..
good morning!!!!!!!! :)

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 1/28/2004 12:56:00 AM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

today i sewed. can u imagine...haha ME SEWING
maNnnnNn...but i'll never beat shui to bein' a perfect housewife :)
-heez- yep yep. today's been quite tiring. but in any case
it's still fine cuz i found a couple of energy fans in my huang chen group :p
*yAy* ahdi :))))))) toro :)))))))
=PpPppPp

anyway i'm determined to go on a diet.
down on the battlefield with me is
mich, xin, FLESYM, yaying(partial member), yanfang (secret member)...
WE WILL SUCCEED!!!!!!!!!
yeah yeah yeah !!!! go go go!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :))))))))))

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 1/27/2004 12:31:00 AM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

a.voice.within

Young girl, don't cry
I'll be right here when your world starts to fall
Young girl, it's all right
Your tears will dry, you'll soon be free to fly

When you're safe inside your room you tend to dream
Of a place where nothing's harder than it seems
No one ever wants or bothers to explain
Of the heartache life can bring and what it means

When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
If you will learn to begin
To trust the voice within

Young girl, don't hide
You'll never change if you just run away
Young girl, just hold tight
And soon you're gonna see your brighter day

Now in a world where innocence is quickly claimed
It's so hard to stand your ground when you're so afraid
No one reaches out a hand for you to hold
When you're lost outside look inside to your soul

When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
If you will learn to begin
To trust the voice within

Yeah...
Life is a journey
It can take you anywhere you choose to go
As long as you're learning
You'll find all you'll ever need to know

(Be strong)
You'll break it
(Hold On)
You'll make it
Just don't forsake it because
No one can stop you
You know that I'm talking to you

When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend
Just trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
If you will learn to begin
To trust the voice within

Young girl don't cry
I'll be right here when your world starts to fall

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 1/24/2004 02:19:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

-grins-

wheys haha today went to abby's houSe. :) had a great time catching up with u :)) u're right..must have more of such gatherings . though abit aunty lah. but nex time grow up drink high tea oso like tt wans :D. MUST DRINK HIGH TEA, PLAY MAHJONG NEX TIME AH! find one rich husband quickly marry heh. :D just kidding :))) new year's been good so fAr..haha tmrRr..go templE..den to teachers' house den my granny's b'day dinner :)) nth much feelin abit tired now must sleep soon...but before tt i'll go eat an apple :)))
AND! .......

nice song :

God must have SPenT a little more time on you
Yeah....
Oh yes
Ohhh..yeah..
Can this be true?
Tell me, can this be real?
How can I put into words what I feel?
My life was complete
I thought I was whole
Why do I feel like I'm losing control?
I never thought that love could feel like this
and you've changed my world with just one kiss.
How can it be that right here with me
there's an angel?
It's a miracle...

Your love is like a river
Peaceful and deep
Your soul is like a secret
That I never could keep
When I look into your eyes
I know that it's true
God must have spent...
A little more time
On you...
(A little more time, yes he did baby)

In all of creation
All things great and small
You are the one that surpasses them all
More precious than
Any diamond or pearl
They broke the mold
When you came in this world
And I'm trying hard to figure out
Just how I ever did without
The warmth of your smile
The heart of a child
That's deep inside
Leaves me purified

Your love is like a river
Peaceful and deep (and deep)
Your soul is like a secret
That I never could keep
When I look into your eyes
I know that it's true
God must of spent...
A little more time
On you...
(on you, on you, on you, you....on you, on you, on you, you..) ohhh...
(on you, on you, on you, you....on you, on you, on you, you..) yeah...

Never thought that love could feel like this
and you changed my world with just one kiss.
How can it be that right here with me
There's an angel?
It's a miracle...

Your love is like a river
Peaceful and deep (peaceful and deep)
Your soul is like a secret
That I never could keep
When I look into your eyes
I know that it's true
God must of spent...
A little more time
On you...
(on you, on you, on you, you..)
God must of spent...
A little more time
on you
(on you, on you..you....you..oooh..yeah)
A little more time
on you...ohhh

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 1/24/2004 01:10:00 AM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

not ur average thug

I keep it versatile, cause that s my style
Form hip-hop to bip-bop
I've been with shorties round the world
Variety is just my personality
Sometimes I just don't fit in
I see the open doorways
But no one wants to let me in
Grandma made me understand material things don't make the man
Try to find that inner wealth and learn to love yourself
Lately it's so hard to find peace of mind
I just got to get away from the haters and the instigators
The mis-conceivers and the non-believers
People don't believe the hype 'cause Leehom ain't no stereo type

No Crystale in the tub
Or iced out Spreewell dubs
I'm really not your average thug
Not your average gangster
And I won't be defined by the size of my knot
But the state of my mind
No Rolex on my wrist
Or platinum on my chest
'Cause I don't need that sh to impress
But y'all don't get it twisted
I got love for the ghetto
Tho I'm your average thug

(Feel me) Lord I've been around the world
Sangin' near and far
People runnin' game all over
Judgin' me before we meet when they see me on the street
And they don't know a damn thing about me
It's a world of jealous deceit and envy
Seems like everybody tryin' to take something from me
Grandma made me understand material things don't make the man
So I found that inner wealth and learned to love myself
Lately it's so hard to find peace of mind
(Lately it is so hard)
I just got to get away from the haters and the instigators
There's back-stabbers and money-grabbers
Users and abusers and they all wear smilin' faces
No Crystale in the tub
Or iced out Spreewell dubs
I'm really not your average thug
Not your average gangster
And I won't be defined by the size of my knot
But the state of my mind
No Rolex on my wrist
Or platinum on my chest
'Cause I don't need that sh to impress
But y'all don't get it twisted
I got love for the ghetto
Tho I'm your average thug

Sometimes I feel like I'm gonna snap
And go off up in this piece on somebody
I ain't tryin' to say no names
But I ain't tryin' to play no games
Holla if you feel me people
Lately it's so hard to find peace of mind
So lift me up in a lonely world that's so unkind
There's back-stabbers and money-grabbers
Users and abusers haters and instigators
and they all wear smilin' faces

No Crystale in the tub
Or iced out Spreewell dubs
I'm really not your average thug
Not your average gangster
And I won't be defined by the size of my knot
But the state of my mind
No Rolex on my wrist
Or platinum on my chest
'Cause I don't need that sh to impress
But y'all don't get it twisted
I got love for the ghetto
Tho I'm your average thug

(Shorties I just need that ghetto love
Take a dip in my jacuzzi
Don't misjudge me 'cause I'm my own man now
Sometimes I don't even wear no watch
Everybody needs some ghetto love
See I'm not your average thug)

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 1/23/2004 12:01:00 AM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

pAi sEhhhhhh >_<

wearing my new dress now haha
cream color so girly.
i feel so uncomfortable nowwwwwwwwww
thanks to shui she says i could gai bian xing xiang.
now i'm so pai seh. stuck in my room
with no guts to go out to the living room and
chat with them >_<
waiting for my cousins to come haha
and lufffff at me.
they confirm tease me waN!!!!!!!!!!
oh nO!!!!!!!
very adultish lah this dRESsSSs..but kinda like it
HAVE TO LIKE IT LA
lol. =)
80 bucks for this dress dun like den how.
>_<
oso wasted money buying shoes i din wEAr
wASte mulAAAA
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! :p

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 1/22/2004 01:01:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

todae was just luffing session at tuition haha.
all of us were in chinese new year mood liao :p
and i won shuiling at cai1 quan2 todaY!!!!!!!! :))))
feelin kinda tired right now so probably gonna go get a hot shower and hot coffee to perk myself up =))
tmr's gonna cross dreSs...:D wearin' sn uniformz. :") hope tmr the celebrations wun be too sian lah huhz :)
cny coming lE...hope everyone happy happy ang bow many many!
:p :P :P :p

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 1/21/2004 12:06:00 AM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

POOT~!

heh heh heh! just realised i could play mahjonGG with my cousins during CNY. that's if there's time :)). kinda sad today, knew about my frieNd being retained...and contemplating to go over to aus...i'm probably goin over some time after my As too. suddenly missed the first 3 months days back @ TJC..absolutely nuts and crazy ;p

but in any caSe. it made me miss my mahjong days haha =D...

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 1/19/2004 11:54:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

my heart propels me forward but my mind keeps me back
should i follow my heart of my mind
i'm stuck once again
if i had followed my heart, i would have taken some kind drug
if i had followed my heart, i would have stop singing and start sleeping.

IFs.

:)

but i love singing - even if i can't sing extremely well.
but that's one thing that can soothe my wounds
and boost my strength
yEAh!
singing relieves hell'ta stress...
*grinz*.

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 1/19/2004 12:13:00 AM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

brutus.

for once i wanna love brutus.
i hate giving out my heart to love and help
and in the end wanna hold it back
and be a stoic.

i wish i could live with the emotions of a stoic-
if he had any to talk about in the first place.
i don't desire to become a stoic.
but if that could take away my troubles,
no harm trying.

s.t.o.i.c.i.s.m

that's it.

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 1/18/2004 11:39:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

tired.

i'm tired and sick of life.
i'm tired of crying.
i'm tired of being stuck in the middle.
i'm tired of saying things that are always misunderstood.
i'm tired of doing things i have to do.
i'm tired of not doing things that i want to do.
i'm tired. i'm really tired.

i wish i could just sleep and never wake up again.
if u could grant me a wish right now,
i would wish for a good long safe and warm sleep - for as long as i want it to be - even if i never wake up.
if only God will grant me that.
or if He can't
i hope someone can step into my life right now and
take away all the weariness that's running in my blood.

i wanna live with my heart, not my mind.
i'm a senseless idiot.
i love everyone but everyone thinks i hate them.
i'm not as mean as u guys think i am. >_<
i'm not as rebellious as teachers think i am, just because my hair color was different.
i'm just,
i think, therefore i am.

i love the way i am but hate the way i'm living.
simply misunderstood.

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 1/18/2004 11:27:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

bumzz.

-yawns- still quite early now but gotta get out of my house to go back to nanyang for team talk. :). quite tired later must do some housework too ;p. yesterday's too tired to blog anything lahs. haha. basically after school n some lunch, went shoppin with shuiling, jungjing and lee ching haha..my fashion consultants..esp shui and jj. ching is like me wan just slack around haha =p.. but must thank them a great deal lahs. help me find clothes =) though now i'm still not very interested but ok lah, abit interested le. tt's a consolation lah hors. =))).

gotta go tuition later..den after that go the party. aiya feeling quite lost about it...it doesn't interest me lah such things but maybe go see see loh. but later i kana left alone very sad cos i dun wan to go dance and shake. hahahaha...later i go to the dance floor there den stone...>_<

oh yeah that reminds me of the "statue" we saw at the underpass yesterday ahha. think we look quite stupid- we were wearing our hwachong uniform..den we saw this human statue la. den we were like "real lah" "no lah!! not real one" "eh go and poke his legs la" "no lah no lah go and lift up the cloth covering his *"..wah piang..sculli really like what shui said, there's a candid camera la. if realllyy ahhh we're in for it la. kns :p

feelin' pretty tired now...gotta finish my homework by today if not..tmr cannot see energy...i waNT to see energy!!! although is video conferencing oni ;p ahdi :))))) :))))

yAy!!!!!!!!!!!!!

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 1/17/2004 10:40:00 AM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

yAhOo!

heyssss. feel so refreshed after a shower :) now i remember, haha the other time i went to taiwan for fortune telling, the lady fortune teller said i should pao4 my feet into hot water 'cos my wei4 not very good. haha. funny~

i'm not going to complete my chem holiday homework lahs. so hard. so tired. did till 3+ this morning and dozed off during lessons again. so paiseh haha. was copying down notes during chem lecture and just stoned there. haha. too tired le.

went aunty rita's house to sleeeeep. den shuiling was like lyin over me and i was covering my face in my hands...haha. then my silly cousin took a picture of us with my fone haha and insisted that i musnt delete that picture. look ugly leh. >_<. den aunty rita started foolin around with the fone too. quite bian tai keep taking pictures of her son weixiong haha. AIYO. actually weiheng cuter. :) but cenjun is bent on saying that he's not cute after you really noe him. haha~~~~ nvm lah, at least he helped me find graph paper :). nice chaps~

tmRr...shoppin...with shui junjing and joyce i think. for new year clothes. shui's my fashion consultant cos i suck at such stuff. she say i must be more gooo niang...AIYO. k lah anything lah. i'll do what she says tmr. think i'll be damn pai seh >_< but suan le. jarnei growing up la. HAHA~~~ :p

yupz...hope everyone enjoyed their day todae!~! heh!! :)

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 1/15/2004 11:41:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

.toro.

you're just one brave kid- one of the bravest i noe.
today i read teenage -i know i'm slow-. i wanted to just cry, because the way e4 could just anyoldhow sign another contract without toro was just too hard anyone could make sense and belief out of it. standing on the stage and perform for all energy fans was once a dream held steadfastly by all of em- together. all of them fulfilled but not toro. i think the feeling of wanting to go badly yet unable to do so, must have hurt alot. toro, wei qu ni le. u're just one brave toro who have braved another storm in ur life, but dunoo should be happy for u or not? happy cos it's made u a better person, sad cos u've teared countless times over it- the friendship, the everything.

n ure so forgiving. hoping that noone will be hurt by this issue when u've suffered a cut that runs deep. suddenly now, i sit here and can really feel that i'm clingin' on to some fine memories that u've given us. ure gao.xiao.yi.zu's lucky star. u were the one who appreciated us and our silly and childish doings. ur sincerity to fans is amazingly touching and u've really, really brought to us memories we will never forget. i'm sure we will never forget those memories... =..) sometimes i will think what is real joy? we can be plain happy when the day's been relaxing or just happy when something pleasant's happened to us. or is real joy an elation we will always remember and keep it deep down in our hearts, take it out to console ourselves when we are sad or ironically, a source of our unhappiness sometimes? sigh. u've been like a big brother to us, as idiotic and playful as we've been... :)...if only ahdi was half as friendly as u are to fans. but i still like both of you as much :). thanks for putting down ur image as toro and fool around with us...i miss you a lot...i'll work hard, n really hope i can see u the nex time u come to singapore....:)))

remember, u're one brave kid and papa. how's ahtoh??
=D

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 1/15/2004 05:31:00 AM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

boo.

i miss ahdi and toro like nuts. miss them to bits.

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 1/14/2004 11:28:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

*yAwns*

hEyLo! quite tired today :(. and i still have to sort out my chem stuff after my shower :(. no need to sleep already lah sobx. anyways. still thinking if i should go to the party haha. go liao abit sian dunoo what to dO. -_-. but then shuiling maybe nobody pei2 oso. den as her gooood friend, feel bad if i dun gO...sIGh!!

yesterday i ran 6 rounds walked 2 rounds. today i did the same distance, about lah. ran 2 rounds around chinesehigh n hwachong combined, and walked 1 round. heh heh. skivin' la. :p. now my legs are aching like hell.

think tmr's quite a long day, till 2.40. cannot slaCk kind and thinking about my chem homework i feel like puking la. sigH. who ask me holidays that time dun wan do. bao4 ying4 la. :(.

okies dokes :) gotta go bathe le. and then this sunday hope i can go see energy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *EXCITED*!!!!! AHDI!!!!!!!!!!!

heh :p

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 1/14/2004 11:07:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

heh heH!

my hair's successfully dyed blacK. look quite or-lu-lu to me now maybe cuz i'm not used to it haha! :) but teachers won't catch me anymore! lalala.

anyway i did my 3km run today!! :) just that i ran 6 rounds and walked 2 rounds lah. but the distance still the same ma:). feel quite accomplished. actually thought i'd be satisfied with 4 rounds, then i was thinkin back @ tj ran almost like 4 times a week and all, so maybe i should try to recover some of my stamina and try running like an extra 2 rounds to make it 6 haha. and i did!!!! :) and i guess the best thing was i din't stop :) *claps for myself* yay :p

anyway, realised that the j1s guys this year, especially those in my junior class very act cute hahaz. i thought only girls would act cute lah but it seems to me it's the opposite case for my junior class :) interesting~ and the thing is ah, they SHARE paper to write to us wans. *pEng*!! michelle and my angel AND mortal wrote to us using the SAME paper and SAME postcards haha. can't be a ploy right? anyway they look really innocent and cute sometimes haha. think i wanna go to school early tmr and talk with them. haha. 've been reaching school almost on the dot haha :)

okies! so i'll go to schooooool earrrly tmr :p and tmr's dismissal time's quite pleasing too~~~ ;p 2.00pm. haha jc2 liao still so early. hard to believe ehhhh =p.

okiess! hope everyone had a GREAT day and WILL have a great daYYY!! :)

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 1/13/2004 11:23:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

teachers rule BIG time.

this morning a silly black cat ran past me and it's those kind die die also wanna run past me kind. no matter how i tried to avoid it it just makes sure that our paths cross. what bad luck. haha. superstition. quite true lah my luck with teachers suck today. from school to tuition. damn. fIrst my CT questioned me about my hair that i understand cuz it's really a little way to obvious. but then again, i did really try to dye it back already. guess i'll go buy the black dye tomorrow and dye again. poor hair. :( then my PE teacher had to nag at my class, sayin' "i'm a simple man..... just a few (stupid) ground rules all of you have to abide by." be sure to laugh to the max if you ever know what those GROUND RULES are. haha. then after measuring our height and weight, he said nonsensical things that meant something like, "i don't want you all to shrink during the next semester." aunty gang just like stared at each other and gave the damn "HUH" expression. as if our height's within our control. HAHA. pls loh. sec one i was like 157.5 158 now i'm 155. wth haha. by 40 i'm erm 130? always had difficulty to grab a glimpse at ahdi during events lah. unless we were standing in front :p but that's pretty rare lately le. ;(. always felt pretty intimidated nex to the big ahdi. so tall so scary. still remember i ran away after standing nex to him for a few seconds. aiyo filled with all sorts of regrets after that hahahaha. ahdi :).

today's gp lesson was quite interesting actually. talkin about the education system in singapore. quite an old and banal topic lahs. but then. hmm. -shrugs-. sometimes i just feel like buyin' an air ticket and just fly over to australia haha. gettin' real tired of the life in singapore. sigh. actually GP lessons are fun...only if we get to sit back and relax and listen to Mdm Toh...haha. occasionally some of us will respond and present our viewpoint lahs. sit back and relax and enjoy. nicenice. then probably get a little troubled by it and by the time we return to our class bench, oh yay it's time for break. foood.fooood.foood. :p then we wait till the nex gp lesson comes ;p

then back to teachers who rule big time. actually i was in a good mood when i was at tuition then it really had to be spoilt by my tuition teacher. wth. but nvm. guys are insensitive ppl. i really hate teachers or parents who compare. i remember i used to get damn pissed when my granny boast about me to her friends. i don't feel honoured at all in fact embarrassed -_-. then the comparing of results..i used to be a pretty okay student back in pri and sec sch lahs. so it was okay but still couldn't stand all the comparision that goes around. damn irritating. i've seen how comparisons have ruined people's ego. thank God i've got a big ego it remains as what is should be even up to now haha. aiyas. now i bottom the class for everything. actually i'm fine about it, really. because i know myself i guess. i'm just those kind who works at my own pace. if i wanna work hard i will no use tellin' me what to do lahs. can try psychoin me cos i do listen actually haha. maybe get a bit inspired and be hardworkin for awhile. den back to normal. today's tuition was just sucky. din have to compare me wat. say what finally i got it correct. -_-. thanks a million. worse still say what... "can think like hwa chong students or not". it's fine if you think i'm stupid. cos i absolutely don't think i am. :) i'm just bad at my results. abit bo tak ceh. bottoming the class doesn't mean i'm dumb haha. just don't do well academically what. -_- haha:). well i can excel in my studies and be stupid in handling my life, so what? i'd rather suck at studies and be life- and street-smart. at least, i lead my life the day i was born till my last breath and only spend 1/4 of my life studying. :) grades aren't reflective. and when i don't respond when you talk, it doesn't mean i'm not listening. i'm just expressionless. GET IT? and i just hate maths to the core. sorry lor i dun adore maths the way most people do. and stop comparin us to the srjc students. it grrrrrrr...horrible.
okies nvm. everyone has different belief systems lahs :)

and...i've finally finished my gp stuff. think i'm quite fast hehehehe ;p kinda looking forward to tomorrow 'cos it's my short short short day! end sch at like 12+. but gotta wait for shuiling :)) after that i'm gonna run 3km. hope i've got the determination to complete the 8 laps lah :) haha. can take my time anyway!!! :)

okies! hope that the black cat won't cross my path tmr again!!!! it's a bRand nEw daY!!! :p

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 1/13/2004 12:22:00 AM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

pEekAbOo!

hahaha. actually i'm pretty tired now but i guess it'd be nice if i can come talk to my non-livin diary(sounds stooopid.) 'cuz i've actually tried bloggin befOre but just didn't see myself through it. haha. :) i'm sucha determined person yeah! but anyways. i'd probably see this one through. 'cuz sometimes just have lotsa thoughts in me but have no idea where i should throw them to. in the end i'd sleep it away haha. that's quite a good thing actually anyway! :) kinda just got back from tuition. think my cousins did somethin' stupid with my phone. aiya she went to take picture of weixiong who's aunty rita's son with my fone. die. then dun wan him get the wrong idea. =_=. den i was like sayin sumthin like "treat my phone with respect lah." i meant it to be like stop fiddlin' around with it cuz abit low batt le. den my silly cousin (i wish i could kill u ziying haha!) went to amplify that sentence. it sounded dead stupid lors. >_<. damn. hahaz...but nvm it's a start of a new day. :) kind of looking forward to PE though i'm still down with mild flu. but it's time i stArt running! :)) but there's physics practical tomorrow. *frOwns*..i forgot all my practical stuff ( that's if i ever knew them from the start ... ) die. all my significant figures. haha. but nVm! nEw dAe new start!!!! :)

PS: the stoopid hair dye din work on me. #@)%*@(^_

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 1/12/2004 12:16:00 AM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

time flies; moments stay!

i've been repeating Energy's "Chuan yUe yI gUang nIan" since like an hour ago. haha...their 4th album's out yet i'm still thinking about the march '03 events..that was their 2nd album promotion..[wu xie ke ji]...and they said chuan yue was a song specially dedicated to singapore fans :) if you've seen the MTV u'd know :)) was lyin' on beD thinkinG about mArch'03...haha i'll always remember how toro turned back and sang chuan yue yi guang nian to us when my handphone rang. so sweet :). but then again my greatest regret and it'll always be, will be that i never got to see toro after the march'03 events. sighs. still brooding over it actually nut nahmind! my hp's wallpaper's him :) old picture though but sometimes old things are the best things...things change too fast sometimes.. sigh. looking forward to seeing ahdi sooooon :)) pigu's going to haunt him forever man hahaha!!!! hope i can see tOrO sooon too :) YEAH!!! one of the happiest things that happened to me in 2003 was to know some eG fans..gXYz..and of cos the m'sia trip. it's a whole lot of memories i never would want to forget. never never never haha. too du2 jia1 already actually :p . but it's all thanks to toro our lucky star~! then again. remembered when we went up the stage at the arena event. stupid gXyz >_< keep telling ahdi ignore pigu cos i'm mad. humpf haha..but it was really nice to see ahdi smilin' so happily. :) always makin a fool out of myself...fond memories really. this year's a real hectic year sigh. but i'll do all i can to see 'em. i never wanna regret again. nonononono. i'm gonna be like Rod Monteiro. Live for the Moment. YES! ('',) cuz i dread the feeling of regret too much that i never want it to happen on me again. maybe we should all live for the moment haha if we can that is. i think that's the happiest thing that can ever happen to anyone. doin' something that comes from the urge of the heart and pursuing something that ur heart tells u too; not ur mind! :)) it's when we are insane we feel the true excitement of life; no matter how beat we are... heh heh. kinda waiting for the rain to subside so i can go out and get my hair dye. stoooooooooooopid. i nearly forgot to dye my hair back. better get it done real soon. (i want a good testimonial hahahaha). yuppoEs!!

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 1/11/2004 03:00:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

panda-fied

successfully lost my 8-hr sleep for two days. >_< gotta worry 'bout my chemistry homework sooooooooooon. -yawns- why did i fail my chem bleah. some teacher from the disciplinary committee took over my class for chem. she sounds good. SOUNDS. but i bet with my tiny life that i've been blacklisted by her. sobs. first' my hair. then i dozed off durin' her tutorial but that's well because i was down with flu that day. then i was called out to answer some organic chemistry question which i failed to understand at all, let alone give a reasonable answer...heeeeeeeeee so i said "i dunoo" then she stared at me like.. "bo tak ceh girl". :( seeeeeeeeeeee. in her bad books already. haha but nvm pretty used to it le~! anws i realised that it's easy to feel the blues when it's deep into the night/morning...was lookin at all the energy pictures in my computer and doinks. i miss the days when the 5 of them were together. sighhhhhhhhhhh. chanced upon this pic toro took with kunda. found it quite thought-provokin...hehz...nvm lah! it's over le! it's a brand new day today anyways. hope i can complete my stupid chem homework =)))

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 1/11/2004 10:13:00 AM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets