YAY!!!!

DEFINITELY not yay-ing cuz i'm gonna ace my paper.
that's for sure, a big fat NO!
but yay-ing cuz it's started, and tt means it's gonna end soon too.
after typing this, it's time to shelve my chemistry books.
*SMILES*

having a really hard time memorising all the reactions and equations. same old thing, pals, help me pray doubly hard that the things i don't know DON'T come out.

and YESSS. today's physics paper. i only guess 1/3 of it right. B-fiEld and what? erm. thinks. electric field+capacitance. other than that, 0_0 (mu deng kou dai)

i have less than half the blanks filled. or maybe less. but what's the difference when i'm not scoring the mark anyway. ha. paper 2's a GONECASE. it's all nailed down to my MCQ and my design paper. no time to discuss, no heck to bother about doing tt anyway. =D

can't wait for chem to be overrrr. WHEEEEE.

i'm really happpppy. damn high now. damn high today oso!!!!

once it starts, it really ends quickly!!!! trust mEe.
=D





caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 6/28/2004 10:26:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

yoohooo!!

it's past 9 now, n i'm counting down to my death time
n tt's approximately erms, 10 hours from now? whatever, i suck at math.
i've officially shelved my physics books
and filed the relevant materials that i'm gonna browse through tmr.
i mean, the last-minute-please-get-it-knocked-into-my-head reading and cramming heh.

or maybe i'll just tuck it beneath my small little pillow and hope the required information and knowledge will penetrate into that thick skin, already-knowledgeable-but-with-the-wrong-stuff-as-of-now brain. ha.

anyway, i din know there's the show zong yi you xian. i mean the tw variety show hosted by jacky wu and NONO!!!!! my fav. he looks so funny. i was like watching tv just now. and i saw that show and i totally just got stuck to my tv set for that quarter of an hour. its was DAMN FUNNY LAH!!! hahahahaha...they had this really awful-looking woman, who's been SMEARED with makeup. thick red lipsticks and all. what u'll see in a broth** lah. den they were playing pranks on fish leong and the who. wah lao!!!! damn funny!!!! :D

and i miss The Simple Life last nite. i thought it was tonite. :(. if not i'd have been laughin at the dumb blonde. remember, "what's that(a well) for?". haha. n what do you call that? you call that JING DIAN. jus like how tuofangz "*blink blink bu jian liao*".

n i haven't bathe :(. cuz why? too lazy to. i mean, yeah. serious. but i'm gonna bathe later lah!!!!!!!! dun give me that dirty look.

n i kinda spent my afternoon out. from like 9am-2+pm. some opening ceremony thing for my "religion" thingy. well, realised it's not supposed to be a "religion". argh. forget it. had some mild argument with my aunt about it. hope she doesn't nag at me. i seriously din mean to doubt this "religion" thingy, nor let my comment be an insult or a blasphemy or any of such sort.

came back, damn lethargic. just filed my stupid physics notes and chucked them into my bag.

there's gp tmr too. what can i say? it's my fav subject. YES. you haven't heard me wrong. and have you any idea why it's my fav sub? cuz it's a sub u dun have to study. and i mean STUDY. like MEMORISING, DOING whatever shit. maybe just a little reading.. but all that reading makes you a more knowledgeable person, as i would like to believe. and i believe there's some truth and sense in THAT belief. =)

n i've only read one piece of information so far. -grins-. IF, i say IF, it comes out, it'll be as good as i strike lottery ah!!!!!!!

*bai liu li bai hui bu hui kai!!!!! (i'm glad it's no longer a public irritant at MRT stations anymore!!!!)

oh yeah. it's about whether we should fear china. for me, i dun think so lah! FOR WHAT? china is my "friend." i mean, "singapore's friend". well ok, singapore tries to be EVERYONE's friend. dunoo if you call that playing smart or playing Games of Hypocrisy. more of smart lah(hopefully) and judging from what i see.

well. we must know that what we see may not be what it really is too yeah? heard some nasty political shit. argh. forget it. =) ignorance's bliss, ain't it?? =D

yep. prolly gonna take a good good bath, smell nicenice! read a few more articles and go to sleep!!!

good luck to jane!
good luck to pigu!
good luck to jarnei!
good luck to everyone!

muahahahaha!!!

goodnitex.

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 6/27/2004 09:07:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

heLLO.

it's been a boring day. woke up, ate breakfast, downloaded alotta songs, read up on jessica simpson, ate my lunch, and went back to sleep. what do you call that? a pig's life. argh. but i'm a smart pig who knows how to download songs. =grins=

anyway, jessica simpson's 1.6m, 49 kg. =D and she's got my ideal bOd. damn nice lah! and she's quite a cute & funny dumb blonde. kinda like her. at least she's not some trying-to-grow-up-asap bitch like britney or something. even christina's like tt already. used to admire the latter fer her powerful voice yeah.

oh yeah, jessimp being a cute and funny dumb blonde. she's someone who's got her own thinking and principles that she does stick to. her own direction in the career and music she wants to make. i guess that's the reason why i'm so drawn to herr after reading interviews on her and all. =) i like people who are very zhi2 zhuo1 in their music. tt's why i like penny dai..quite admire tao and leehom also. jj oso not bad.

speaking of dumb blondes, who can ever be dumber than paris hilton? have to admit she's got the looks, the bod, the $..but din her parents spend that bit of money sending her to school or something?? i mean how can anyone ever ask, "what's a well?" laughed my head offfff. ok, maybe cuz i haven't read anything nice about paris hilton and all, only thing's that she looks great and fab and all. well, jessimp cannot differentiate fish and chicken either, but she's cute.biased,biased.

i mean, i can't believe Mr.nMrs Hilton allows their dot to spend, i mean, waste the money away...how could theY? it's unbelievableee. i mean, i'll be rich nex time(haha. dreaming again!!!!); but i wun let my children spend away the money like noone's business. cuz that's MYYYYY money. and i've just learnt that spending ur mumndad's money is easy, but u wun wanna squander that money if u earned it urself. why? cuz u know that it's hard-earned money.

yesyes, i know i oso spend alot. but then again, this' being self-defensive i admit, who doesn't like to spend? moreover, i'm quite confident that i will be able to earn back my mum's moneyy when i grow up. ok, dun count the eggs before they hatch. wellll...yEAh... but i've cut down alot on my expenses after halving the money in my bank in 4 months. and it's not a small sum.

okkk. so today's officially day ONE after deciding to almost-give-up preparing for block tests. it's so tiring to study!!! argh..n i'm quite confident that i SHOULD be able to passs. it's only a matter of how well the passes are. -smiles- really hate studying!!!! ARGH!!!!

but tmr's always a brand new starttt. i'm gonna go gym and swimming with michhh =D happpyyy.

anyway's A Child's Hope is really touching. sigh all the helplessness in lifee. i'm more than convinced that money is important. and even more convinced that yes, money may not buy you everything, but without money, how far can you go. no doubt there are the success stories of those poverty-struck people who turned the tables and became millionairesss. but how many of these people do you have in a 100?

is changing your destiny ever something easy?

is there such thing as defying your destiny?

if you answer's yes, what makes you think THAT is your destiny?

"sometimes goodbye though it hurts in your heart is the only way for destiny..." ha.

anyway i'm not exactly a soccer fan or euro fan, or not even one. but i'm quite proud of the English being able to lose with pride. it's so much more impressive, at least to me, to be defeated with pride than win. quite a pity i missed the gameee. but it's at 2.45am. i'll prolly end up sleeping in front of my tv set tooo. and the best thing was, there werent' any riots n all. maybe there ARE MANY who are quite sore about the loss, but at least those being interviewed took it easy. =)

ok, that's how much harm/good the media does to uss.

but it's always a pity to lose on penalty. i agree, i agree.

and what!? i think beckham missed his. but forgive this man. his earnings are definitely going to plunge even more after Euros.(that's my guess. a stupid one cuz i'm not really into soccer). it was bad enough after the sex affairs and all. maybe that's how God's fair. you get the fame, you get the blame.

tt's why there's always good to stay on low-profile right!?

but it's always applaudable to be on high profile too and be admired by people like me. see, it's not easy to earn my adoration. or maybe, it's THAT easy.

but kofi annan's one that has earned not only my admiration, but my standing ovationnn as well. =)

that kinda silent confidence he exudes...

aw.

i mean,

awe.

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 6/25/2004 11:48:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

my death time haha.

click to uncover the time of ur death haha. it's quite creepy maybe cuz of the stupid black background.

today spent the afternoon @ woodlands library...wah. din know had to queue up to enter loh!! like chasing star like tt, damn farnie. :D wun say today very productive...but then again, there seems to be NO END AT ALL to studying. i'm gonna stop soon. :D but dun call that give up, call that rest before exams would be more apt. :D

recently downloaded sclub's say goodbye. it's been quite a while since the release of this song but only got to hear the full song recently...or rather, last nite.. very nice song...will upload the song up soon :)

the lyrics' quite sad.. =~)

decided to walk home from interchange, that's quite a distance but good exercise though..saw a wheelchaired uncle..and beats me, the kind angelic soul in me just stepped forward and offered a helping hand. it's been some time since i ever rendered help. it's a really nice feelin'.. :) it's nice being nice. but sometimes it's nice being nasty too, but that's rarer.

it's no foolish coax when when ure taught zhu4 ren2 wei2 kuai4 le4 zhi1 ben3...*smiles*. it really brightens up ur dayy. :)

i seriously can't wait for BT II to come, and GO!!!!!
it's not the comin part, more of the GOING-AND-SHOOING! part. haha. all the fun!!!!!!!!. i've decided,really. gonna rest manx,since we're NEVER EVER gonna POSSIBLY finish what we are required to. that's after like 4 days of serious studying. =D. tt's considered good already ok.

you walked into my life and walked out
miss the footprints u left
you may not rememberrr.
but i do.
n i cherish em.

tat was basically, crap.:D

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 6/24/2004 09:29:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

=)

hai2 you3 ming2 tian1's a show that really touches you affectionately and deeply, makes you appreciate ur life & brings you to the highest level of contentment. tt's what the world's lacking, aint' it?

we've driven ourselves, hopelessly, helplessly into a pace and lifestyle that craves for nothing less than the advertised, which defines the right standards of living. amidst of pursuiing such "worldly desires" as the monks would put it, we seem to have thrown behind some intangible essence of life. :)

been sunk into the abyss of regrets and whatnots. :(. things like damn-it-why-din-i-apply-for-trip-science...i could still clinged on to the chance of becoming a doctor and would have the least changed into such a slackass. >_<. but in all, i believe God has a plan for me...there are so many permutations to the paths anyone can taKe...tt makes everyone special ;)

anyways. downloaded many f.I.R songs today...the lead singer's voice is very special i would say, not the kind of voice u'd think is suitable for rock-singin'. but in any case, she still sounds pretty good. but there's this lacking of solidness. but i like her zhuan ying.

was listening to jj's old song...hui4 you3 na4 me4 yi4 tian1.. *smiles* great similarity drawn to colin ray's "Love mE" aint it. about granddads and grandmas..guess the love in the past's so much more pure and moving ah. :) but it's a nice song that will touch ur soul.

today spent my day at woodlands library mugging fer my stupid block test II. did organic chem, but i would say, there's so much more to cover!!!! my head's gonna burst!!!:D but it's always pleasant to just let ur mind drift off to post-exam-days, provided we don't plunge into the post-exam-syndrome lah! going shopping with jiahui is one of the activities on list! haha!!!!

see. the tests not even here, i'm already thinking about post-exams. kick my arse! :D

to my wunnerful fwens, mug harD!!!! and the sucky suffering (great alliteration, hor???) will be over in the shortest time you can ever imagine. and it's fun all over again!!!!! for another 9 weeks. den it's time to start mugging for the stupid prelims, which have no impact on us anyways. not like we're applying for scholarships right. haha... :D

muAH! to all my fwens

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 6/23/2004 10:28:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

hair's in a total mess.:D

yupx. the fan's blowing right into my face and my hair's flopping over my face. ah! so distracting. wanna go cut my hair soon. :D cut liao, a lot of good luck! and i desperately need 'em to pass my block tests. think passing shouldn't be a prob this time, it's a matter of how well only. hopefully, i wun get caught off-guard this time. seriously dun wanna stay back in school to study lah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

pals who know me well, u know i can't tolerate a 'caged-up' life. argh. freedom's what i yearn.

so a good big step to prevent any poor-sparrow-being-locked-up-in-a-cage scenario from happening, i'll be at woodlands lib tmr, studyin with my squadmates!!!! GRINS!!!! seein them again really brightens up my day!!

so decided, after shattering my schedule[again], that it'll be organic chem day tmr. do-eat-sleep routine. quite a conducive environment fer sleeping rights?

anyways. toro's in town. *GRINS*

nitexxxxx.

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 6/23/2004 12:14:00 AM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

back!

came back from dinner with dgt. but not all present, quite a waste. ni was sick tingting's not free..den nicole..celina..din get to see nic but cel awhile onliz..sigh

anyway guys, no matter what, still friends mah. it's like tt wan. unhappiness WILL arise..but most importantly, must yue4 guo4 this hurdle...and u'll realise that the friendship's a brick-stronger...=)

so damn tirEd.. though we din do much except just eat ... and take neoprint haha.

okie dokex. tmr's another damn-it-must-study day.

ARGH. i hate studying. and i'm totally looking forward to uh, post-exam activities hahahaha!

aunty jiahui just booked me on 3rdjuly. :D

yahooooo!!!

goodnitex

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 6/21/2004 10:14:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

:)

it's a brand new day! :D

hey i'm meeting dGt later :> and i'm sure ni nut na will have alotta things to tell cuz today's their first day of school!!! =D hopefully, they have something good to share lah! :D

yeps. i'm feeling SO hungry right now. gonna have dinner with them soon haha! haven't seen dGt fer sucha long time nehx.

and today was PIAHing day!!!! i did math. but a lot of mistakes lehx. :( and i did. erm. oops. i think tat's all. but it's MATHS. understand that it's MATHS. and i'm a maths-hater.

but felt damn tired halfway and slept! haha :D

and i'm skipping tuition today again! muahaha! gonna meet dgt. more important. actually no, more fun. heHx. but i will have to go for the nex coupla days anywayx.

hungry!dirty! gotta go bathE.

have a great evening/night ahead! :D

*GRINS*

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 6/21/2004 06:12:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

:)

i know i'm damn emotional. damn temperamuntal. din mean to sound so darn harsh. but that's me.

sounding so mild now rite?? :))) cUz i think i may be meeting gXyZz tmR :) or issit dGt? it's been quite some time since we've met :>

and sch's starting can see all my silly friends hor. and mich just said she loves me. muahahhahahahahaha!!!!!!!!!! :))))))

nitex all.

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 6/21/2004 01:29:00 AM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

-_-

damn tired. reached home at like 12.30AM after 11 hours of moving boxes haha. helping my aunt out at her old house. she had to like pack a week's schedule into one day and move EVERYTHING out by today. argh. super tired.

my plan today fer studying's gone again. loads to do and so damn little time left. argh. k save the time for whining for some serious study lah huh.

all i can sae i ended my freakday on a bad note. not cuz of the tire or whatsoever. i dun mind working out at all. but something happen lah huh. something that i would say, spoil a friendship.

damn pissed. and i really try to control my temper with my relatives. cuz why? they are my family. i NEVER looked down on my family.

n realised one of them does. on me. today. knew it today. i know i sound like a god damn faggot here. so when my tutor said he had MORE CONTENTS OF THE MIND than i did, i said i was gonna prove him wrong.
and she told me jiayou i can do it. shit lies. today she said doubted my abilities. well. it could be unknowingly. unintentional. but i tell ya, it hurts. it hurts even more when ur own kin doubts u right. who gives a fucking damn about what my tutor thinks. he? contents of the mind? SUIT HIS OWN FUCKING THINKING FOR ALL I CARE.

dun ever look down on me. dun put me to a challenge. because when i DO get serious, i'm out to prove you wrong. dun pull me like u pull a string to its fullest taut. i can be f nasty.

but thanks for looking down on me. u make me a stronger person.

i'm not angry anymore. can't be angry fer too long anyway. soft on the inside, hard on the outside.

just learn this: dun put me to a challenge cuz of all the challenges i take up, i prove 99% of my challengers wrong.

dun ever try to ignite the devil's fire in me. i can be nasty. dun blame me if i end up spouting nonsense that can make you cry. if u hurt me, i'm gonna hurt you back, if u go over my limit. it's as simple as that. i dun care if you call that selfish, you call that petty. i dun give a fucking damn about what YOU assholes care. because to me, that's SELF-DEFENCE. because for all these years, aside from the family support, i've been standing alone. it's an almost ugly damn world out there. i'm gonna protect myself against all the freaks out there. you may beg to differ, but who care about what YOU assholes think.

you fucking opinions about me has made me stronger.

THANKS.

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 6/21/2004 01:03:00 AM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

i love my piano :))

but i've yet to get a piano cover for it, and it gets dustier and dustier day by day n that includes the bear sitting on it :) call it the bodyguard or whatever haha!

spent an hour of my morning playing the piano *smileS*

think i'm changing my blog's song to:
Dai Ai Ling's Dui De Ren <---click for link to lyrics.

kinda like her voice :> and the song..is what i feel lah! haha!:)

p/s:let's be optimistic here. maybe staying back in school to study would be good for me. nahmind. worry bout that when results are out :>

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 6/20/2004 09:49:00 AM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

paris hilton nicole richie leading a simple life? haha.

yup! spent my night watching the quan ming ou xiang thingy. thought it would start at 8 in the end it started at 9. so kinda slacked the hour between by watching the lame econ-minimart show. :>
the winner this week not bad lah. but abit too old to be ou xiang. haha. yeah. dun have age limit but there's potential limit lah!

den i remembered the paris hilton+nicole richie show! hahahaha. that's why i switched channel over. paris hilton is damn freaking skinny lah!
and they spend money, nono, squander away their money like mad. they buy things that are worth in thousands ok!!!! they so rich, donate some $ to me to do some mini shopping leh.

>_<

quite happy:) my mp3player's surviving :P
that means i dun have to get my ipod THAT soon. shall save up and wait for something better :>

not good to ask for rewards for doing well in exams hor?

dunoo leh. but i wun even do well in the first place so ferget it. maybe can BEG for some relaxation-after-tests money. see, filthy rich people like paris hilton and nicole richie just spend without even thinking or asking. urgh. and me? i BEG for that tiny sum of money.

but must always be contented right? *smiles*

ya, i know, i'm very fortunate liaox! :)

but it's always nice to dream and fantasize about shopping without $ worries mah :P

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 6/19/2004 10:52:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

good twist of emotions in a couple of hours.

:) today's a day that had me smiles, laughter, anger, and whatnot.

went back to nanyang...felt kinda nostalgic i would say. a lot of memories.. -smiles- still remember a friend asking me if i miss the past. now i do, i really do :>. i wish i could turn back time and salvage the many things i've lost. but we've prolly lost it to know how to cherish other things that come in our lives. like the saying goes, "we so often look at the closed door for so long until we missed the open one." not the exact words but you know what i'm driving at la huh :)

shan told me today, "you were really motivated last time you know. about everything." yeah. i used to know what i wanted in life, i strived hard to achieve them, and i do most of the time. but now, i lead life as if there's many tomorrows, letting time slip away as if it will come back to me. as much as i'm satisfied and contented with my life, i can't help to feel a tinge of regret at i recall what i've lost, especially in the past couple of years.

gained many insights too of course, but really miss my motivated self. i'm happy the way things are, but in the long run, i can foresee myself being more contented if it was the motivated me. optimism's a good thing-u see the greater scope in things and let things have a lesser impact on you. but it's kind of a hindrance too, don't you think? with optimism comes a dip in motivation. perhaps not for u, but certainly the case for myself.

i used to stuff myself with a lot of dreams, be it realistic ones or unrealistic ones. but i used to dare to dream, and of course, challenge myself. now? so afraid of truth. tt's so.....not me.

i miss my old self. i do i do i do!!!! n i still remember my friend telling me he misses his old days too. -sad smile-.

shrugs. guess after a while of motivated life, u tend to get a little tired, a little weary so when you experience a little of slack life, you enjoy it totally. until one day ur friend strikes you with a comment that simply means, "you've changed". nah. it may not be a bad thing though. but at this point in time, i start to question if this change good. not only in the short run, but in the long term as well.

today's a day of thoughts, in short. but it's worth every minute of celebration cuz that shows that at least, at least i'm thinking. things are changing the moment people start thinking. hopefully, it's the better for me. :) dun wanna risk my As for this slackened me. though i might have to risk this BT II.

anyways. then i went to popular bookshop to buy pens. but realised the coloured pens have very limited variety of colours so i decided to give them a miss. ended up buying this bookmark which totally reflects an inner thought of mine. it reflects a lot about my life now. i know it's non-living but the words on the bookmark had some kinda connection with me. or rather, i could connect with those words. that would make better sense hor. bought a G-tech too. :> my lucky pen for exams. see. i din even need luck for exams in the past. if i prepared, i knew i would do well n i do. guess my brain works better or rather, best, when i'm motivated.

at the rate i'm working and driving now, my brain's functioning at only a quarter of its maximum capability. oh c'mon, i know where i stand among my pals yeah :>

here's the pic of the bookmark :


it says: "We all fail at some point in life. It is not the failing that hurts, but rather knowing that we didn't try out best. As long as you've done your best, lift up your head...life must go on"
after reading so much, can u see the connection?
=)

i have a lot of such bookmarks. in fact, i have one that's so flowery with "Jane:God's GRacious Gift"
one day i'll dig them out and have ur eyes feast on them yeah :)

den i think Dawn Tan was at tpy popular doing book-signing. seriously, i've never heard of her, but it doesn't kill to know more about an author right. so i picked up one of her bestsellers, apparently one that hit the top of the charts for quite some number of weeks. she did one that was The Broken Mirror and now she's promoting the sequel to it The Awakening.


den got to know that she actually met up with SEA Women Leaders and wrote a book on them. guess i'm more into politics and world leaders rather than drugs lah. so i wanted to buy the Daughters of Asia book lah. but it was outta stock in tpy popular. frankly, i was alittle disappointed. wanted to get Dawn Tan to sign it there and then. but guess i'll have to wait lah!

had a casual chat with her and told her about my aspiration to work in United Nations. i damn buey pai seh right. haha. but i really hope i get to work in United Nations, like Kofi Annan :) he's my role model!!
get really inspired to help the less fortunate after watching hai2 you3 ming2 tian1. guess it makes you appreciate life more. :)
but dun wan be social worker leh. sounds quite boring.

It's a really big dream to work for United Nations. :). but it's gonna be one dream i'll strive to fulfil. after the countless letdowns in these two years. hc screwed up my beautiful life man. haha! nahz. just kidding. =). it's my own fault that my life took a turn to this path i guess :>

anyway, in the end i bought both the Broken Mirror and The Awakening. gonna read them soon. maybe while taking a break from studying. =) n got Dawn to sign them for me.
here's it:



yup! that's DAWN TAN in the pic! can foresee her being the nex hit writer :)


anyway, satisfied with whatever i've bought, i took 238 home. wah! it's been a long time since i took the bus leh! i've always been walking home or driven right to my doorstep. :p

and to my #@"))$*@!$*_"*%&@#&?_#$(_($_#@($"_@(%@_$5, my granny had to spoil my day by locking me out of my house. ok fine, my fault that i forgot to bring my keys out. but can you imagine the damn f-up feeling of being locked out of your house, when you're feeling so hot, so tired and so f-ed up? ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i was damn angry. seriously blaming my granny for not telling me that she'd be out playing mahjong.. (right, my granny's 85 and she's still quite sane. just that lately realised she's abit gong gong... :( that's quite worrying). anyway, decided to calm myself down and comforted myself by saying that human are subjected to fault and error. my granny din do it purposely lah.

so being a damn-smart girl, damn buey pai seh again haha, i called up my granny's friends and finally located her. got the keys from her and tada! i'm right here. frankly, i was still a little mad when i left her friend's house. but i guess God's really nice. He calmed my day by sending two sweet little kids to say "byebye" to me...they were so nice. :) and i din know them at all!!! they could have seen me as a stupid stranger, storming to their house to get keys with this blardi black face..but they're so nice :> they said bye to me!!!! and they sounded really cute!!!!

kids:)

now i'm convinced that the kids at aunty rita's house's one of their kind. would still say, MOST kids are still cute and cheerful and innocent. at least my future child will!!!!!!! :) i will groom him/her(hopefully will have one boy one girl) to become a great helper to the society. hope i'll live till then :).
it's really nice to know that everything in ur life happens for a reason. if i hadn't been angry, i wouldn't have really appreciated that innocent tone in the little boys' "byebye" right?

so sweet..............

heck about all the distance i've walked under the stupid scorching sun after a tiring day, i think i ended my afternoon on a good one note :)
the kids :)

so sweet. :>

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 6/19/2004 04:25:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

hEe

hey!! guess what carebear i am!!
carebears!carebears!! :P

*drumroll*

See what Care Bear you are.

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 6/18/2004 11:00:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

unbelievable!unbelievable!

guess what? :>
i walked from toa payoh to bishan; frm my home to my aunt's. :) that took me a good half n hour. but a good deal of exercise, considering all the sinful tortures my digestive system's gone through for the past 2-3 days.

today's an unfruitful day. or maybe quite. din do much save for some physics stuff. just spent the day wondering how i'm gonna pass my tests. it's just 3 passes i ask for. can't ask for 4 A-passes cuz i dun take that many subs. can't ask for 2 A-passes cuz i'm still in school? i mean, if i were to be left with 2 As, chances are that i'm outta school. :>

so gdshittit. if u could decipher wat that means. not to cause any infamy or whatso. but just some word to describe this feeling in me. heh. :>

1 more week. 1 more week.

is that gonna be the lifespan of my remaining freedom?

ah. hopenot.

shan't whine and whine anymore.
off to s--t. good pals will know what that is ^^
it's my favourite pastime hahaha...
it's good fer ur digestive system y'noe!!

signing off,
deep-shit-deep-fried-j.a.n.e?

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 6/18/2004 10:48:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

headachessssss.

came home round 1+pm. after walking quite a distance, cuz i realised i dun have enough money in my ez-link for a bus-ride. so tiring. came home and blog-surfed awhile and plonked on my bed n slept for like, say, 5 hours? 2 till 7. :>

but i think it's too much la -that's why having some stupid headache now-, considering i slept alot during chalet too haha...well sleep's important for me ma, and i love sleeping!!!! :>

stoning and waiting for 9'0'clock show to start :p quite touching horz, and ou xuan so pretty...after tt got O.C watched the episode last week. not bad la. so just watch again lah! dun feel like studying anywayz...

just talked to lian. and realised i have ALOT to do. gdi. still harboured the thought of "dream to shock" after BT I. can forget about it already. the whole thought of tests tests tests is damn sian.

if i dun pass any subs again, meaning an E and above, i'd have to stay back in school to do my work. and i dun wan that to happen argh. damn damn damn. must at least all Es. anyway the dean told me this round of tests wun be easy. unless u're blardi hardworking, forget about ur 3 As and whatever f shit.

damn pissed lah. why have exams and all. -_-.

k. shall calm down and watch me hai2 you3 min2 tian1 later :>

chalet was...fine. quite fun haha. sentosa was great when we went into the sea.but when the sun starts to drain you out and give you headaches u tend to get abit sian. which happened to me lah. afterall, not bad lah. but all the pigging out was damn sinful.

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 6/17/2004 08:48:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

i desperately need some sleep!

just reached home.

i wanna surf e net. just like what i do every night.

i have to pack my stuff.

i have to reschedule cuz i'm lagging far behind my schedule.

but good.

i just finished my apple;

i less thing to do.

but the packing's gonna take up lotsa time.
clothes.toiletries.

but tmr's a day we've all been looking forward to!!!
hopefully it's all of us
and not only the few of us ah!

gonna wake up super early to buy food with fangz and the rest
that totally explains why i need some sleep right
surely u'nt want to picture me in the trolley sleeping, will u?
:p

and without sufficient sleep,
i can just shut off my engine,
anytime
anywhere
anyhow
so it's easy to find me stoning
which means sleeping with my eyes open

off i go to pack my stufff!!!!!!!! =)
within 15 minutes!!

*the time starts now* it's 23:17.

23.42 -done-

rightx, i took an extra 10 mins. :>
i was fiddling with my fone for that 5 minutes in between.

anyway, if u're darn bored, do visit this bitch's
well, it's not like i hate her or dislike her
just think the way she talks subjects her to be called one.
she makes sense, though.
but the way she talks makes you wanna slap her straight in the face

can tell some people are trying to be like her
pls don't
it makes u more xia lan nia.
:>

have a great day tmr peeps.
and the day after tmr.
till thurs, enjoy and take care. :>

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 6/14/2004 11:09:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

-sniffs-

the coffee smells especially good tonight
it's been a long time since i took a sip of this familiar taste
used to have it every fortnight to keep me from sleeping
to sustain me through the night
through the empty thrills!
*empty thrills=staring at the comp screen and doing nothing

wasted were the days,hours,minutes,seconds, countless time.
sitting on the same black chair
seems like all the laziness is falling upon me,
once again.
DAMN IT.

gotta chase it away soon!

on my way home just now
my mind was filled with some complicated thoughts
we were all born ALMOST equal
but nurture has its way such that we all take different paths
in the later parts of our lives
nature has its way of swirling us into the permuatated paths too.
nature or nurture?

looking back on my past
i wonder, how have i come so far
thank the Almighty fer giving me the strength
to hurdle over the obstacles
and giving me the strength to become who i am now
for bestowing me a supportive family

i have the freedom i want
i have almost all my wants
i have almost everything i love
except for one thing

m
u
m
m
y

but she lives in me forever :)
that makes her nearer to me than anyone else
my motivating force
my role model.

i may not be perfect
i don't aim to be perfect
but this' just one of the times
i'm so in awe of myself
i'm so in awe of my mum
i'm so proud of the 18 years i've lived
proud of my mum's 36 years :)
we're the best mum-dot pair.

i will continue to live the proudest moments
and continue to earn for myself more moments like this
and hence, the song
a moment like this

we should all spare some time out in our lives
let ur mind float as if it's out of ur control
be amazed of urself;
of ur accomplishment
it's so often that we always deprive ourselves of such
self-appreciating times

i love myself
albeit a little too much sometimes :>
haha.
tt's why i'm almost infallible.

just kidding.
everyone's a weak and strong soul in them
it just happens that
i'm a little imbalanced

great night all! :>

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 6/13/2004 10:46:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

grinsss.

it's another damn-tired-but-i-dunoo-why day. arghhx.
or maybe i know why! i stayed up to watch the opening match of euro'04.
sad enough, i think portugal lost despite everyone's takes on them.
eh, not sure oso, cuz i woke up after dozing off!!! and saw that the score was 2-0.

poor thing, i think greece's defence was applaudable. i mean they guarded luis figo like mad. homeground somemore, hope there wasn't any conflicts uh, between the two countries' fans. trust that the portugese government would have done sufficient work to counter that problem.

but must say!!!! i think the portugese players more shuai!!!!^^

ate stingray today again! yay. and tie ban tou fu.
-smiles happily-

woke up pretty late today. lianz gave me morning call at like 7+ cuz there's supposed to be some cheering comp at ny today.wanted to go but far too tired to set foot out of my house. in the end, i bounced back onto my bed, hugging my baby pillow..zZzzZZZzZZZZzzzz until like 11+. had to go out to buy food back nehx.

having quite a bad headache. >_< and still have tons of math to do. argh. feel like pushing it to do another day but no more time left! aiyo!!!!

sianZzZZZZzzz

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 6/13/2004 02:09:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

contentment

fear not, it's not an entry of philosophiess! :)
it's just a word to sum up my day!

was a little lethargic when i woke up at 9 tt's why took my breakfast and went to sleep again(fat!fat!) but felt much better when i woke up. still a little lethargic. shrugs. slept at 11 and that was a full 10-hour sleep when i woke up. heh..i love sleeping manz.

so feeling a little not-so-jumpy haha. got stuck to my table and did temperature n wat nots. :> and that's all i did today..at least i did something!!!! i used to go to block tests without doin much. trying my best not to pick any chapters anymore...but judging by the lot i'm laggin' behind...uh. i might havta do it again. >_<

but it's ok i did that back in sec school too muahaha.... :> i never finished reading the novel until before Os...heh. still managed to churn up a decent grade fer lit. so proud of it! i NEVER got beyong 14/25 back in school kkk. and fer Os i din even finish my 2 stupid julius caesar essays..i hated JC btw. must have been the magic of [to kill a mockingbird] that helped me ace the paper with an a1! heHehE..either that..or the marker was half-asleep. but i think i handed in well-written essays fer mockingbird :>

so hao lian cos i never did well for Lit ok! haha. tt's one of my proudest things. hee. and i think lit's a wonderful subb..i know a lot of students hated lit cuz it's not a paper u'd score but it's really a subject that broadens ur views on the world...especially the intangible stuff.

quite a sad thing i'm not taking lit now, but i heard from my friends lit paper 6 hours...SIT UNTIL MY BUTT ROT!! and i dun write much one. my hand aches like shit. unless i'm super interested in the topic haha.

i kinda miss lit..*=(*

will definitely pick up mockingbird and give myself a good read after this round of block tests.. =)

oh yeah. my day of contentment despite the lethargy rite.

yEah!! i felt super tired just now, and had this sudden mad craving fer coconut! the juicy flesh .. the refreshing juice.. ^_^ h.e.a.v.e.n.l.y.

so i made my way to central's NTUC. damn crowded. not a scene u'd like to picture urself in when u're feeling so blardi hot. and with that hot-temper of mine, i would have just kicked anyone's asses to get my way through. saw the coconuts! ^_^ there was this cheap one priced at $0.71... and another one which had no price-tag. thought about the pathetic $5 bucks i have. i took the "price-less" one. heh.

and it was worth 3 times the small one! $2.15.
but it looks damn nicee..this the picture of the coconut husk. damn clean right. DUH. i scraped it like mad to maximise my satisfaction kx! :>



then i went to buy some dishes fer dinner. being a fish-lover, i just asked str8 if got "yu2". heh. then the auntie say dun have but asked if i wanted "mo2 gui3 yu2"...den i was thinking, "huh. isn't that a kind of yu2?" but i had no idea what fish that was loh. so i just "orh ok"...bought veggie too! healthy, hor?

waHh~!!!!!!!!!! when i went back home, i ate the mo2 gyu3 yu2 ah..i realised it was stingray!!!!!!!!!! it tastes quite nice when it's cooked in a different way i mean. more of the soup n light gravy style instead of the samba shiok!chilli. and it was cheap too!!!!!! $2 only!!!!!can u imagine, how much has the school canteen aunty cheated me? $1 for that blardy small piece that's not even half as tender and nen4 as the one i just bought.

hope her hair gets fried SOON.

so actually, the mo2 gui3 yu2 + coconut saved the day! yAy!!!!

yummy!!!!

sigh, i feel like buying a new digicam. mine's so not portable. but i've got a cammy fone already. so many wants! plus! i wan a new mp3 player. eyeing the samsung one...but it can't store so many songs...i wan ipod!!!!!!!!!!

i wan ipod!!

i wan new cam!!

i dun wan new fone!!
gd88 rulxx!!!!!! :>

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 6/12/2004 07:38:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

wth is the bachelor boutz

is it about a man finding his "love" or about women crying and sobbing or issit about making viewers go "HUH" and get blardi turned off by it?

tonite's episode was just crap. seriously! i mean i caught the first episode...it was pretty boring lah. cuz well yeah, u dun see the bitchy side of women. wah todae's episode was too much to handle man. one minute they are bitching about them, voting their "pals" off as the least compatible...another moment hugging them as if they're ur best friends. damn it. reality shows are too much of a reality uh. serve them right. see, their heart so black, vote lee-ann off. in the end she gets a chance to spend a one-one date with bob, that ugly fat jerk.

the bachelor sux. especially this season's. WHY BOB? yuck!!

i prefer bachelorette. at least trista's pretty and the guys are more or rather, less irritating. they dun anyhow cry as if they've lost their true love. i mean, they really consider bob to be their true love meh!? wah laoz, got alot of other men worth your love lor... and they dun just tear leh. they CRY. they SOB. they WAIL. tmd, say other people immature, speak for yourself lah!!!! u guys just wanna have more time on tv rite!!!!
:p

boa's so cool.

after my tests, i'm gonna ask my aunt buy me jeans and pants..i'm so pantless and stufffff. arghhh!! i need shoes too. but she'll complain that i dun wear them. :(. i do i do! but i dun keep wearing them..tt's all. wanna have more choices mAa...:> guess i'm really high maintenance. want this, want that...heh. i better earn lotsa lui to support myself nex time manzzz~~

sigh. it's another boring night, thus, another long entry frm mee. maybe grab something to read later..TIME? storybook? uh. not storybook. i must sit down and read throughout onez...if not not exciting. heh. and the first book i'm gonna gRAb to read will be harry pottyy!!! :> den i'll read brainstorm, this book i bought quite some time ago and i haven't read it. it's like, collecting dust already :>

it's midway through hols already:>
dunoo if i'm looking forward to school. forget about block tests first. u see ah, the faster we go back to school..the faster the term ends..the faster the term ends..the sooner we get our study break..and no more early mornings and rushings to dooooooo. no more CS! no more...no more...whEeEeEe!!!!! but soon, it will be As. but that will be over soon right! :p soon it's the loooooong loooooong break. and that's definitely worth lookin forward to!!!!

anyway, jiahui tole me there will be S.H.E concert soon. dunoo true not. but i wanna go watch..heHhHh...=D den i'll scream for eLLa!!! yehOo!!!!!!!!!

nuts again nuts again!!

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 6/11/2004 10:27:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

bored.bored.bored!

Which [Charlie's Angels] characters are you?


Are You Naughty or Nice?


Is the glass half full or half empty?


Which [5 Elements] are you?


What [Cakes] are you?
heh! haha...tis' quite true :> selfish..yeah. towards people i dun like lah! basically most people are like tt, nice to peeps who are nice to u and be nasty or ever nastier to the opposites haha..at least that's how it goes for me lah! :>


What's your usual [mood]?



got many other tests! :) can go taKez~

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 6/10/2004 08:13:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

woaHzz

*tired*. not very, but still, a little tired lah! :) but it was a great dinner with my ex-klassmaTes!heHh...just got home and i just switched on my comp. quite a net-addict i must admit. anyway, went to eat at shit, i forgot the name of the place. it's tt building outside united square. hehz. the mexican baked rice's quite bland actually. the fish and chip, so-so. but the erm, fries was superb. i'm not exactly a fries-lover so it must have been quite nice really! :). it's so sinful right. and my one-month diet plan has gone down the drain again!!!! *sulks*. it always happens. tmr's the last day i'm gonna succumb to all the evil, oily, high-calorie, high-carb food. so u food, stop staring at me!!!!!! i'm not gonna hiew uu! :>

tmr's another sinful day. but i'm broke. so broke. yeah so going maxwell to makan dinner :>. alotta good food there!!!!! yAy. not to forget, ate stingray today!!!! yummy...what else could be better man. maybe old chang kee's carrot cake's up to the match. but stingray effectively shuts me up... *drools*..

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 6/09/2004 11:12:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

i realised...

ahdi looks like kim zhua(paper money) in the picture below. haha, u know those that have a square in the middle of it? yeah, that's what i'm talking about. realised he's wearing a damn silly shirt.

today. boring la! :> but the nex 2 days are definitely gonna be fulfilling with all the gatherings with my ex-klassmates and gxyz. -smiles-

jiahui's attached!!!! hahahahahahhaa!!! whoohoo!!!
*CLAPS*

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 6/08/2004 10:22:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

psst psst!!

i passed my organic chem test! not fantastically, but better than expected, since all i did was a silly mindmap. silly as it is, but it actually breezed me through the surface qns of the test!!! whoohoo!!!
got a 60+% after calculating the whole paper! wHeee...so try to do mindmap!! it's the fastest way and easiest way!!!

but seriously, there's nothing to cheer bout. cuz two weeks later, when my real test comes, i'll prolly forget everything...ARGH! haha, why haven't i a good memory!! MUMMY!!! I TOOK AFTER UR GENES LAH!!!! >_<

haha! but i still luv ya no matter what!

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 6/07/2004 11:45:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

the day after tmr...worth the loneliness. :)

as the title suggests, yep! i watched the day after tmr alone cuz my friends went to watch harry potty, which i have gone gaga over the nite it came out. i had a hard time deciding if i should watch the movie alone k!!!! all the loneliness, sitting alone n all totally freak me out. but i din wanna waste my $, might as well catch the gr8 movie rite. i mean that's what sharon tole me anyways! she said it was good-the way i recommended her harry potter - "it's worth every cent of urs!!!!" but i know there are some out there who beg to differ. yeah yeah! it really boils down to what you actually expect from the film. the dimwit me haven't read the novel, never carries too much expectation into the theatre will obviously, of no doubt, be in awe of the movie, as well as rowling's creativity to craft up such a fascinating harry potty story. :).

so actually, i did back out last minute, i tole the aunty who was tearing off the studs,"auntie! let me go in la!!! i sit on the floor!!!". "bu ke yi lah, you go and change with the counter yourself, later i get scolded neh!!". given my lazy character and half-heartedness really, i din go and seek for an extra ticket into the HP theatre. it was a win-win situation for me anyways! -grins- so might as well go watch the day after tomolo. :>

as i was saying, i'd think every movie is nice-not much of a movie critic as much as of a idol-critic uh!heh...but the day after tomorrow is a movie that's touched me so greatly, and it's reminded me, and i believe many of ya who have caught the movie, that despite all the evil in the world, there's still so much humility, humanity around. love's the word... :> but the hilarious part was, i had to constipate every possible sound i was going to make, to save myself from a lunatic's embarrassment!! i mean imagine the one sitting nex to ya's watching a movie alone. ur first thought: "gosh, chances are that she's a loner." maybe u're more angelic than me and you wun think that way, but that's my first impressions. call that stereotype. and the next thing? she starts laughing to herself. ur second impression: "gosh. no wonder she's a loner!". haha. so, in order not to subject myself to such inaccurate judgements, i kept as low a profile as possible - i din munch on food, controlled every sneeze, luffter or thrill. so much to control for just a "mian zi". *GrinS*.

actually i kinda fell asleep during the adverts but lucky i woke up in time to catch the movie. :>>>> like fangz would say, my engine shuts off automatically after i'm immobile = stoning.

a few scenes which really touched my heart greatly...

sam's mum decided to stay and take care of peter it sorta brought back to me my childhood aspiration of becoming a doctor, which seems so distant now. why i wanted to be a doctor was like i wanted to save lives and that's exactly what sam's mother was kinda trying to do, to protect peter, knowing that him, being a young fragile child, would be immensely threatened with fear when the tornado hits the hos. and sam's mum, despite the fact that her life would be in as much as of a grave danger, she took on a sacrificial spirit and stayed on, not leaving peter in a lurch. i believe, strongly believe that's the spirit every doctor should have - expertise in saving as many lives as possible. it was prolly nothing more than a doc-patient relationship but she had so much to offer for him...touchin'!!!

sam's mum agreeing to let jack go search for his son hey. hope i hadn't remembered wrongly. :>. the whole tornado effect was happening within seconds and all and the whole situation must have been suspended in uncertainty, as least that's what i feel lah! sam's mum prolly knew that she could lose her hubby as well, but she still let him go, cuz she also wanted him to save lives..awww...

laura helping this mother-daughter(hope i hadn't seen wrongly) ahhhhh. helpful chiobu nehx. sameee, it was a situation where anything could happen and the route to safety was to run into the library asap, but laura stood back to help this mum-dot in need cuz the police couldn't understand what they were trying to say. and the scene where laura turned back to retrieve the handbag is definitely worth ur applausee. or maybe not, i think the part where erm, sam went all out to save laura, knowing that a tiger wave(aiya dunoo what u call that, i'm not a geog student okiee.) could just smack right into his face, was even more suave!!!! so much to do for love!!

the father and son invisible bond from what i inferred, i thought jack din't spend much time with sam actually but the part where laura asked sam what was his most memorable trip or something, sam actually reminisced 'bout the trip with jack, his dad, to greenland. tt was so sweet. and the kind of trust they had for each other was infinitely moving. definitely. it's like "my dad said he'd come, he'd come..."

"I made a promise to my son, and i wanna keep that" the whole journey from i-dunoo-where to the library which was in NY or Manhatten i can't figure out, covers more than like 50 miles? and imagine travelling through snowflakes which u won't know are safe for that kinda distance. every step's a hazard. but that's so much to give for father's love. that's what u call unconditional...at least that's what i feel :> the part where the third guy with jack and i-forgot-his-name cut off his rope in order to save the other two's lives were very wei3 da4 too..

this movie not only created this awareness to everyone who watched the movie(hopefully), but also touched many, at least me. it really reminded me how many humanity, love, humility, compassion, trust could give and that's a nice reminder to give in times of disorder like this! :)

kudos to the producers!! :)

nvm, shall take the chance now to urge every reAder or this entRy or my blog rights...if there's ever a war, please go out to save as many lives as you can. really hope all of us will be a good civilian, going out to save, instead of waiting to be saved. yeps.even if it means putting ur life at stake. just put it at stake then; you know u're not alone...i'll be there :) just feeling quite disappointed as i remember my friends' reactions when i ask them about their plans if there was a war..haha..they all tell me they will flee. -shrugs- personally, i thought that was quite a sad thing. -smiles sadly-.

my aspiration or rather, slowly, it's transformed into a dream...to become a doctor's rekindled again. it's the process of studying for 7 years that's turning me off, plus the stupid fact that i prolly can't qualify oso. tt's quite sad ah. but i believe there are certainly more ways than one if you really are sincere about saving others' lives. i could go and be voluntary nurse too :). ok dun luff leh, i know some of you will be luffing at me wanz... hahaha! i predicted tt kx. cuz why? u all expect nurse to be gentle right and i'm far from that, i admit haha! but....ok, cant defend myself fer this point. i'm indeed chorlor. haha!

just thought that tonite's entry about the movie's an imperative. a movie that set my mind feeling and my heart thinking. =chuckles=

if u haven't watched it, catch it when u're free :)

lovee, jarneiz

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 6/07/2004 11:02:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

new song!!!

it's my current favv, i mean i'd be like repeating this song over and over again on my playEr *grins* it's kelly clarkson's "a moment like this"... here's the lyrics:

can sing along if ya want!! :>
KELLY CLARKSON - A MOMENT LIKE THIS

What if i told you it was all meant to be?
Would you believe me?
Would you agree?
Its almost that feeling that we've met before
so tell me that you dont think im crazy
when i tell you love has come here and now

a moment like this
some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this
some people search forever for that one special kiss
oh i cant believe its happeneing to me
some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this

Everything changes but beauty remains
something so tender i cant explain
i may be dreaming but until i awake cant we make this dream last forever?
and ill cherish all the love we share

a moment like this
some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this
some people search forever for that one special kiss
oh i cant believe its happeneing to me
some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this

could this be the greatest love of all?
i wanna know that you will catch me when i fall
so let me tell you this...
some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this..

a moment like this
some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this
some people search forever for that one special kiss
oh i cant believe its happeneing to me
some people wait a lifetime for a moment, a moment like this...
oh i cant believe its happening to me..some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this..

okiEs! let's move on...
ahdi's new hairstyle!!!!! wHeEEeEe!!!!!



he looks more like a rockster now ritex..so punk!! *smilessss* k, mich's gonna say i'm drifting into my own world already...anyway i think ahdi wanted to go into rock more than a typical boyband typa thing :>

there's the golden melody award ceremony shown on tv now :). it's a nice way to squander away my timeee :>. did i just hear "zhu xiao tian and liang yong qi"? haha. tt's quite a mismatch.. weirD!!!

saw energy liao lah. why wear shades keke. really got sun...xtraaaa...sorry looz, kunda..dun look like human there...heez..dun understand, why 5dayband thank energy.lolz.

anywayss! i'm wondering if i should go cut my hairrr. maybe after my tests ah. i mean like, if i xiang3 bu4 kai1...i can go cut botak or something. i'm nuts. =D

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 6/06/2004 07:27:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

this is my only hope...

after hours of colouring, i mean, outlining, and arrow drawings..it's finally out! n this all i'm depending on for tmr's test. wheeeeheeee.
congratulate me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! n at the same time, wish me luck wahaha!!!



oopsie doopsie!! i'm runnin' late. haven't bathed, haven't anythinggg.
die. my right eye's still twitchinggg!!! aRGh, wth's gonna happen. yepssss, hope this marriage will be a blissful one! it will it will!!!!
yay, can see pretty bride! ;)

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 6/06/2004 12:08:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

gOod moRning!! :)

oh yeah i've recovered the song "I Miss You" by Aaliyah... cuz the previous source's down with virus or something. anyway i pounced upon this really cool website..visit it when ya guys are freeeee kZz~

-----> click! herefor music/music videos -quick loading (at least on my comp lah)

yepsss. i'm super bored. again lah. yepssss. downloading F.I.R's Fly Away, contemplating whether i should buy their album notz. hehz...buttttt, i'm already eyeing Tamyra Gray's album haha. well, just like latoya, she was a favoured contender of the AI comp.

anywAy, did modify my blog a little! that's pretty fun ;)

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 6/06/2004 10:36:00 AM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

sleeping kills boredommmm...

well yeah i know that's a every-one-knows-it kinda fact but ehhhhs, sleeping is a kind of happinessssss where you throw yourself into a world of ur ownn, jerk yourself into this half-asleep-half-awake blurnessss..it's a bliss mann. n i'm so thankful that i've been sleeping well lately! whoohoo! quality is better than quantity la!! *grins*

but i seriously abhor the feeling of nothingnessss when you open your eyes and to ur horror, you've piled up yet another mountain of work, above those that haven't been completed. ARGH. and u start wondering all over again, what the hell's exams for?! usual groaning and moaning as usual. ;).

and that's exactly what i'm feeling now, 'xcept that it's not as blue a feeling as before. just a feeling of mere ARGH!!!! haha! clay's SOLITAIRE's damn nice. ;).

i woke up at 9, after a flawless sleep :). tt's quite early right ah yeS. :p. its my bio clockkkk! i told myself i'm gonna PIAH! my organic chemistry cuz i've got a R)@#*%_@#(%_@#(%_!*$ test on monday and i have figured out that i won't have the time to do last minute PIAH!-ing tmr nite, cux i've gotta attend some wedding dinner. a waste of my time! i'm gonna spend like a good 2 hours just sitting and staring into space, while waiting to be served upon. -_-. to add on to my own sorry plight, there's probably no shuaige to see. tt's ULTIMATE BOREDOM!!!!!!!!!!!another ARGH feeling. k back to what i did today. erm, that was n.o.t.h.i.n.g. serious. as i was saying, i wanted to PIIIIIIIAAAHHHH!!!! my organic chem. i did overcome that activation energy, and that brought me to my bed where i was staring at my mindmap. but it seemed as if there was not enough kinetic energy left already. i dozed off. that's how i woke up with an ARGH feeling.

k, be glad the organic chem test wun have an effect on my block test la! kekeke!!

*TAIRE------------------------------* diana's got that kinda breath that clay has. that reminds me of diana PIAH!-ing her last note for "Don't Cry Out Loud". poooof!

dun noe why, my right eye's twitching. haven't any idea if that's supposed to be an omen or something. shit, it's been twitching for the whole damn dayyy-when i'm awake, that is. heh. but it's quite irritating.
ARGH. see, another ARGH feeling.

it's 3+ now, haven't done anything. if this' my accomplishment for every other day from now, i'm gonna say this the day before my tests again... "AH SHIT TOMOLO TIKAM AGAIN". damn. when will i grow out of thatttttttt. it's ok if i tikam and correct u know. the fact is i don't. especially for MCQ. i always choose the wrong one after eliminating 2, which leaves me 2 remaining choices. mathematically, i've got a 50% chance. that's what u call a BIG FAT CHANCE. yet i still miss it. aRgHhHhhHhhHHh!!!!! i dun wanna tikam again nEh. later tikam until As...tt's quite -erm-. right? k i'm starting to crAp.

well, at least i've got tuition later lah. not that bad, still can get some work done, hopefully. no no, not hopefully. it's a gd-must!

it's yanzi's song now. -contented smile-
it's been a long m.i.a for her uh. heard some rumour goin' around tat she's not coming. wth. dun fake me nehz cuz i'll be super sad. hope she feels energetically-and-emotionally-charged after this whole term of break. yeps. she can't not return. her fans will )@#%*@_(_ $@(%$% and i'm wondering if that includes me. muahaha..

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 6/05/2004 03:35:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

FREAK! this' how bored i am!!!! hEhx!!

ah wells, bored until the fact that i've exhasted the top-rated quizzes/most popular quizzes. so what did i do next? i went to erm, scan thru interesting quizzes at the index, which archived over a 100000 quizzess. ah well, the latest one! i'm really smart, street smart la! haha. but not exam smart thou'. hEck, it's lousy memory. besides i think i got my mummy's genes haha. bo tak cheh kuan. i saw her report card k!!! all red one neHz..!!

YOU ARE RELLY SMART


Are you street smart?
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caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 6/05/2004 12:18:00 AM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

rite..i'm bored [again]

Heaven: You are a true angel. You are destined to
move on to a place where there is no evil, just
people as beautiful and pure as you. Graceful
and classy, an angel like you has wonderful
things ahead! (please rate my quiz)


**Where will you go when you die?**(now with pics)
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You have a guardian angel no doubt about it. Even
though you haven't exactly seen him, he's
watching over you without-a-doubt.. who knows..
maybe it's love?


would an angel, demon, or pure evil fall for you? (now w/ pics!)
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waH sEhHh!!!! am i that angelic!!!! muahahahhaha
*evil smIRK*


You belong in the world of leaves and trees, where
the wilderness can claim your soul. Somewhere
like a jungle or a thick wooded forest would be
your world. Intensely in tune with nature, you
feel the world belongs to the natural ways that
once ruled the planet. Be yourself, and
everything will work out. Don't let the grind
of the city destroy your free-as-a-bird nature.


Where do you belong?(ANIME IMAGES)
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haha. me with nature. weird combi!!!


Sandals- peaceful, daydreamy, and thoughtful, you
often find yourself staring into space. When
you aren't out volunteering you are often just
dreaming away. You enjoy the company of
friends sometimes but enjoy peace and quiet.
[please vote! thank you! :)]


What Kind of Shoe Are You?
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mE? peAceful!? hEh...i'm what u call WAR. ahem, not whore. WAR.


You are the Aqua Marine Mermaid. You are pure and
brave. Strong and True. Your best freind is
your seahorse, your steed. You have fought many
battles in your own life and in the sea. No
matter what challenge you overcome it.
Congratulations there are very few of you.
Would you rate my quiz for I am brave too?


What kind of mermaid are you? (Gorgeous Pics)
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i'm a rare specie haha!


Well your Happy, yes thats right your so happy, so
pretty and witty and if i go on any more i will
have to pay for the rights of this song so,
great jop your one of the lucky ones.


What Emotion Dominates you?
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haha. i guess i'm pretty happy now lah!!! but wait till i take the quiz again when i'm doWn. hAHa!!!

You are not in love but you are not not in love,you
are trying to find things about the world and
want to find that woderful one but you cant
find what you are looking for GOOD LUCK and
please rate my quiz


Are you in love?
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Gay Bear


Which Dysfunctional Care Bear Are You?
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shittt. i nearly shocked the fool out of myselff when i saw "gay bear" damn it. i thought for a moment i was a tabor. LOL! anyways. yEay. i'm deviant? perhAps la! :)

i've almost exhausted all the silly quizilla quizzes that spark an interest in me alreadyyy. yAwns! gonna go gym tmR!

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 6/04/2004 11:27:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

wHeEzz!!

just came back from shoppppin'. n tuition tt is. did like 4 math qnss. heh! duno if i should be happy bout tt! anyways, indeed happy with the things i bought lah! i bought this top from zara and another from 77th street. sad thing wassss, i couldn't fit into the skirts i like. i mean, only S were left. argh!!! i'm so fat.haah oops i sound anorexic! nahhhhh. -grins- anyways. qian tried to comfort meee sayin that everyone else took away the Ms. okieee, accepted!

oh yeah i was like choosing between a blue and pink top. but discarded the pink one cos it was tooooooooooo sweeeeet!!! pinkypinky. mindya i'm not jiahui! hahaha!! u pinko fReak!!!

it's gonna be an exciting week aheaddd. i mean, nex week. say, i've got 4/4 gathering on the 9th then, g.x.y.z gathering on the 10th. seems like not enough time's left for studying! hate it hate it! always started off with a positive feeling, like, "OH YEAH! I'M GONNA FINISH STUDYING THIS TIME." but what happens in the end.."OH GOSH. TMR'S EXAM'S ANOTHER TIKAM-TIKAM SESSION! GDI!" but i'm gonna prove my EGOISTIC tutor wrong mAN. what the hell about the "contents of the mind". -@_@- tt's the closest eye-rollin' face i could get out of the keyboard. ah wells. nah-mind bout narcississtic peepss!

oh yEAH~!!! and i saw a pic of ahdi's pictureee, with his new hairstyle on ni's blog!!!! he looks super refreshedddd. haha.! can't wait to see himmm. waHaHaHa!! all the more i've gotta do well for my tests this time. yep, ahdi's b'day's comin up so as usual, wanna do something fer him la! -grins-

after this blog entry, it's dead boredom. or rather, lively boredom? i mean, it's a lively boredom that's why i'm bored rite? aargh, crapoo!

have a GREAT day ahead peopleEEE!

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 6/04/2004 10:48:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

mUahahhaahha!!!

soooo happy!!! gonna go shopping!! whEeEee!!

like so borEDd...i know gotta study! i did! but got bored after awhile. damn it. self-disciplineeee. ah wellls. that reminds me of the sh*t essay i wrote during CS about self-discipline. haha

anywayssss. gotta go batHEe! it's a GREAT day aheadd! *grins*

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 6/04/2004 12:37:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

obsessive compulsive


Which Personality Disorder Do You Have?
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Your: Wondering eyes. Your not quite focused and
your quite the day dreamer. Your a bit odd and
as many say "Your head is in the
clouds."


What type of eyes do you have?
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You have a beautiful soul! These are rare and very
special. One who has a beautiful soul had
beauty inside and out, and are always very
kind. You may be the one who always applies
make-up to look better and achieve certain
standards, but you look just as gorgeous
without makeup. You take pride in yourself
because you know that you are worth better.
Sometimes you preen in front of the mirror for
hours, but youre never too busy to help
someone. Everyone loves you and you love them
back, with a lot of friends, and popularity.
But you didnt get it because of your
clothes-you got it because there seems to be a
radiance around you, a sort of glow, that
attracts people to do better and be better.


What Kind of SOUL do you posses? (For Girls only) Incredible Anime Pictures!
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*too flattering lah*

i'm reallly boreeddddddddddddddd.


muahaha!

Congrats! Your a Pure Angel! Angels, as far as most
of them go, are all compatabile creatures, but
Pure ones simply are symbols of God. Pure
Angels always appear when a child is born, when
a rainbow is seen, or when someone shares their
first kiss. They never grow old, an can appear
in the shape of a naked woman with white, bold
wings. Pure angels are the carriers of god, and
show their love to everyone in the world.


What Kind of ANGEL are you? (For Girls only) This Quiz has amazingly Beautiful Pictures!
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You're Element is Light. You are friendly, happy,
social, bubbly, and can brighten up any one's
day. You are very kind and a real people person
because you have several friends (or atleast
should). You're cheery nature makes you lovable
and your stunning looks are sweet and stand
out.


What's Your Element(girls)? (PICTURES)
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i'm soooo boreDDDDDDD.

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 6/03/2004 01:04:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

blueblue heart! hahaz

Your Heart is Blue


What Color is Your Heart?
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caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 6/03/2004 01:00:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

be glad i'm not 5 years old? ehh.

My inner child is sixteen years old!

Life's not fair! It's never been fair, but while
adults might just accept that, I know
something's gotta change. And it's gonna
change, just as soon as I become an adult and
get some power of my own.


How Old is Your Inner Child?
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caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 6/03/2004 12:56:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

bored. so i took another quiz hah.

FROZEN QUEEN/ KING
You dont want love to come through to you. You like
it the way you are. To be unreachable, no need
to show feelings. Hiding everything inside you.
You are already used to it. You say yourself
that you dont need anyone, that you stand on
your own two feet or that you dont have time
for these things. But in reality you are scared
to get hurt. You feel save where you are: by
yourself, nobody can hurt you there. You
invent your own relationship in your dreams.
You just need to know that you COULD get a
partner.
Thats it.
PLEASE VOTE, I want to know what you think about my
quiz, I worked hard on it.You can always
message me or tell me how I can improve that
quiz. Ill sure write back.


~THE big LOVE TEST!! What do you need? With PICS! For girls and boys!~
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caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 6/03/2004 12:45:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

heHhhhhh...

Your are going to marry tom cruise. He is older and
wiser and still is quite charming. Congrats!


Which male celebrity are you going to marry? (14 choices now!!)
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tom cruise!! haha. but i dun really adore him or something lah. haha! i wanted that SCREAM guy dunoo what Junior one. ah u know lah, that one! i retook the test and still ended up with ah Tom!

just finished eating a whole load of durianSs..wOAHh. been eating that for 2 consecutive days. heh! anyway hols sucksssss! but it's hehpy to know that i'm gonna watch harry potty tonite!! -grins-

totally in love with kelly clarkson's [A Moment Like This]. damn niceeeeeeeeeee. *swooooooons*

have a great day aheaddd ppl!

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 6/03/2004 12:36:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets