blogsurfing and bridget jones diary II.

that would sum up all the shits i did today.
mundane, boring but HEY i had good fun. :)
at least i found out so many things.
well, i mean blogsurfin and all.

after a while i got darn bored and just at the right time
xx msged me and told me about her job interview hehs.
it was successful! GREAT! :)
kinda met up and watched Bridget Jones Diary.
=))
funny, i watched the second part without watching the first.
so maybe i'd go source for the vcd and make some sense outta it :)

it's quite a funny show. unexpected at times.
especially the lesbian part.
HAHA!
quite earthly. it's not TOO much of a beautiful love story.
it's quite realistically unrealistic.
or should i say, unrealistically realistic.
oh wells, the former would be more appropriate lah.

then again, after hours of blogsurfing,
both in the day and night.
i realised many people are confused beings. haha.
okie dokes, who isn't?
but i read a piece which was quite awakening
something that i feel, would be relevant to anyone around.

hang on. i pasted it somewhere in word.
i think it's frm xiaoling's blog. though i don't know her personally
just know she's from my senior class,
i can't agree more with her on this:

"ever felt like you lost someone,stopped talkin to someone for a few brief months
and things can take such a great change?
try as u might, to hold on to the reins of the relationship, friendship or what nots. u
try ur darnest best to reach out to the person & yet it seems like the most
tumultuous task ever.you keep trying, but more often than less, you land up in the
pits, in morass. all alone. so helpless.
you were once that close. shared such intimate thoughts.
so you try again and again.
but nothing seems to help.
they are just in a world of their own,
you are in one of your own.
finally, i realised what that meant.
i am part of history.
whats lost can never be retrieved.
then u question again is it even worth it?"

PANG! allow that to hit you right thru ehs.
"what's lost can never be retrieved."
it's the same old adage that runs in the same sense.
"we always only know how to cherish when we lost them"
and even though thruout, we know we are gonna lose them
we continue being wilful and persistent in what we deem
unsoulful yet tempting.

i nearly did something really out of my senses.
then sometimes you think if it's ever good to have what you call.
"the senses".
or should it be just,
"nonsense."

if life's to be of impulse, i don't know if i have the courage to live it.
but if life's to be of little regrets here and there,
i don't think i have the patience and senses to tolerate my own nonsense.
trying to piece back everything.
just as perfect as i hoped to be,
i suppose life is indeed, far from that.
:)

my heart tells me to do alot of things.
but the fuel lacks what you call, courage.
and hidden in the lack of courage,
is a willingness to just
"let time heal whatever it needs to heal."

may it be family or friends.
or just,
life in general.

each of us have a story to tell.
a story to hide.
a story to cry for.
a story to laugh about.
a story which we have a heart for.
then of course,
it's more than convincing to state that
our life's a story where

the first capital comes from our first baby cry.
the title- the outstanding quality of our own, recognised by the print on the spine of the book, where it either catches some other people's attention or not.
the blurb, where i believe is only written after
the Lord has allowed us to pen our last full stop- which i may say, our last breath.

don't you agree :)

wonder if i'm feeling all sanguine now haha.
perfectly not i suppose.
just another creep feeling so i-have-no-idea-how-i'm-feeling-but-i-shall-pretend-noone-knows-me-better-den-myself on this Monday night.
waiting for the drowsiness to set upon yours truly.
so i can wash up and turn in early.
get my 8 hour sleep.
meet my dear dear pal whom i've known for almost 7 years now at 11 tmr.
i have plenty of time to sleep.
and snore.
yesss. :) that's the life i'm gonna have for the next coming 7 months.
if i remain hopelessly unemployed.

[oh silly employers.]

am i excited about christmass??
i think i am!!!!
still thinking how i'm gonna spend it.
realised all e tix to aus would have been booked.
and i can't even reach yuying :(
her mailbox quota is full. i have absolutely NO idea when she's coming back
much less when she's going back.
which means i don't know when i'm going down aus either.
boos. :(

anyway. i'm still not tired HOW.
i bet i was an owl my past life.

heh heh. goodnites.

"some things are not meant to be
some things never will
dun stall your life for something that wont come
no matter how much you want it, dont be dumb."
(from senior class' felicia's blog)


caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 11/29/2004 10:30:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

i look stewpig

with a paper clip on my hair hahahaha.
but that's e only thing i can find to push back my fringe.
eh heh. cant' believe we sit until back pain to watch
my sassy girl. =)
and tuofang needs to go help her couz pack her hostel and move things back home.

tell me tell me.
should i go @@ taufik tmr?
=[ i have nothing for him to autograph.
but i realli wanna see him live leh.
aiyo.
so far.

=[ i wanna see singapore idol on 1/12.
but shar says stay at home the face we see will be bigger haha.
then again, no atmosphere leh~!~!

sian. huiyuan and minyu breaking up for e nth time tonite.
always, forever like that one :[
anyway i know i'm freaking slow! but i like my sassy girl's ending.
and the girl is, wow. charismatic.

stupid viv dun wan go watch taufik wimme. =(
plus there's a job interview tmr. wonder if i should take it.
haha.

tell me, all i'm feeling now is forced emotions.
true ones have dissolved.
unnatural you call it.
what's left is the emotionless
and only fallen pieces of friendship-
which now is weak and unrecognizable
tried to pick them up but i guess
it's time to leave the way things are.
:)

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 11/27/2004 11:01:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

argh ;(

my comp suxxx. :(
it's getting old :(
so even though i feel like modifying my blogskin
i can't.
for fear that my comp will hang and all efforts will be futile.
=(

nahmind! forever friend's cute enough too :)))
listened to zhang shao han's song just now. dug out the album after listening to her new song on 93.3 called mamamama. haha. quite a cute song.
think my couz zinc will agree non-stop to the contents of it.

to my dearest zinko:
after reading your blog i feel so bad. dint know u've so much pent up anger and that's something i din pay attention to. i'm so sorry =(. when ure back from china, we'll go out together kkk. :) miss ur silly selff. u sounded so sad and angry =[. there is always a cause to ur mum's worries...afterall, she's ur mum, i'm sure you understand she wants the best for you rite. maybe u'll attain enlightenment when ure a mum urself =). not that i know a lot, but i must let you know there's always people around whom u can seek to explode to okie :) LIKE ME :). feel like giving you a hug now u knowwww. my cute little couz. :) -grins- as for the stress ure facing cuz of Os next year, guess it's part and parcel of life...even if it's gonna be tuff, u gotta hang in there. play hard and study hard at e same time. i guess all ur mummy wants is you put in your best efforts... and the reason why she can pretty worked up is cuz she feels you haven't really tapped on your own potential :). and we all believe you can do it!!!! remember the sms i sent you that day? [you toootie din reply me. but being a magnanimous person i shall forgive you :)] nahmind. i shall repeat myself...to me you're a smart but lazy girl. but in that laziness lies a very simple you. and that's something i admire about you. living life each day as it is. but but but, as much as i appreciate u fer that, you must oso know that we need security in life too k :). love u lots my dear girlll. hope ure enjoying urself right now :) -hugs-.

riteys. listening to my fav song of yanzi's album.
tang0 tang0 song hehe. "man man lai".
din have a good sleep lah sigh :(
i forgot to off my alarm at 6.00am SHITT.
feeling so sleepy again....
but i feel like calling lian to talk shits.
and i have to finish reading [Angels and Devils(or issit Demons)] plus Da Vinci's Code soon.
feel bad hogging up the two books haha.
and i have to return 'em to my tutor.

waitin for the time i can go bathe.
and watch tv. and go shar's house to slack.
OH NO.
i still haven't found a job.
=[

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 11/27/2004 10:40:00 AM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

oh-ee-nooo!

whatever happened to my resolution to sleep by 11 every night! haha! :)
today was an exception. :)
forgot to bring my keys out and i'm kinda locked out of my house.
so went to fang's house to seek refuge haha
still on cold war with my granny.

and kill me pls?
she actually wanna phone my auntie at this hour.
she's getting on my nerves really.
doing all the eccentric things at all the quirky hours.
don't really like spending time at home anymore.
whole day onli see her chao bin. damn sick of it.
i know i shouldn't be feeling this- afterall she kinda brought me up yeah.
but as of now i think adults can be a pain in the neck lah.
as much as they can be a BAO.
:)

and dun trust yanfang to paint ur nails. cuz her ability is seasonal haha.
her first layer put not bad leh
but ruined it with her second layer. in the end i came home and do myself again haha.
nvm.:) and i bought this really really vague colour lah. cuz i really like it :)
milky pink. OH MAN. pink.
but it's not obvious. =) so i'm quite okay with it.
i spent 14.05 on that. sally hanson one.
but it's really good quality lah.
i actually pondered upon it for a long time loh, tinking if i should buy
but i really like it a lot lah. so yuppp . :)

tmr gonna go shar's house watch vcd.
finally i can watch my sassy girl.
YEAHOO!!!!!!
after a day of walking..... *phew*
it's time i turn in for a good rest.
and have yanzi sing to my ears and hypnotize me to sleep....

*
d
r
e
a
m
s

a
w
a
y
*

:)gOOd nite!!!!

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 11/27/2004 01:14:00 AM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

eeyaoyaee

red to the worries. till when i'll worry again
does not matter cuz the
green will bring more luffter and smiles to the next few days
weeks and months...

YEHOO!!!

but frankly, it's not as exciting anymore =[
perhaps i'm immune to it lah!
=)

went around shoppin today...wow.
i'm tired :)
went 2 far east to try my gown...
very happy when wanling said it's worth the 280.
=]
realised i'm splurging too much! aH!
must go find work liaoz!!!!
lobangs, anyone!!!! :)

yup den after that walked with lianz to wisma atria to meet e rest.
den i must say i must say!!!!!
dunoo what school havin grad nite/prom nite at meritus mandarin hors.
i was just walking past den this super duper feng du pian pian guy caught my attention
and he was among his friends.
yes, that's how outstanding he is can.
tall tall de, wear suit. saw him shaking hands with his friends.
damn gentleman. wear specs one.
i think he's really good looking. or maybe even if he isn't,
he's really got the X-factor and charisma.
so qiang until i just stopped and mu4 deng4 kou3 dai1.
it was damn funny lah really.
den lian was telling me
"eh u know hor! around him got this plump guy thought we looking at him lor.."
well, i din notice any other guy except for that fdpp guy.
ha ha ha!!!! really very shuai :)
but he's younger den me lah lol. :)
still i must say...he's really impressive.
REALLY.

haha. saw my acjc friend today.
but i have no idea why recently keep kana tongue tied.
argh. =[
i was like "so you've been FOUNDING your dress ah."
can you actually imagine i said that?
i should slap myself a zillion times for that. so darn pai seh lah!!
you have been founding. HA.

but nvm, everyone makes such mistakes once in a while.
-grins-
and she was like sayin, hwa chong took ritz carlton on the 8th.
which is the "traditional" date for acjc prom nite.
haha. but that was quite different from what i heard.
thought it was rj and ac fighting for shangri-la.
=). well, so it was acjc vs hcjc vying for ritz.

suddenly miss all my ny friends!
=)=)

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 11/25/2004 10:09:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

haiz...

all the damn things i prepared din come out.
at least not like one full qn.
ideal gas onli one small part.
nuclear din come out at all.
really very sad lahz...
in the end do those i never study at all
like capacitance....
heng i got them right...
but i think i still screwed my paper..
but why?
mcq and paper 2 all okay...and i must screw this up.
hope it doesn't pull me down by a grade lahz....haiz....
depressed sia.

come home onli my granny insist i take her things.
just damn vexed.
already one very er xin paper...
come out kana yuan wang.
well i understand that her memory's failing her
but it's just not me to be able to stand being maligned.
not like anyone else can.

today's paper really sux.
i really haiz...sian diao...
maybe cuz i've been lucky for paper 1 and 2
so heaven is punishing me to screw up a 110-marks paper.
so my result slip will be a BBB.

my aunt ask me ABC important?
i say, yes of cos it's important.
not that i'm a study freak.
but i've come a long way
from sn to nyps to nygh to hwa chong.
i haven't been the top student of any kind.
but i wanna end my education with 3 nice certificates.
all the aces till here, and i have to screw up and get 3 Bs?
no way.

but then again,
i know even if i do do badly
i'll get over it in 2 weeks' time cuz life goes on.
and God probably wanted it to happen that way
to make me a better person.

but u'll still be sad rite?

sigh.
guess it's all luck.
u tell me lor, who will go and read up on SI units?

just hit the bottom pit.

this feeling SUCKS.

my tears just flow not cuz i'm sad
it's cuz i'm angry.
bu shuang.

go watch tv.
bye.

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 11/24/2004 07:04:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

tireD!

heh heh.
went out to study with my squadmates heez.
ahhhhhh. i miss em so much.
did onli one paper. but it's enough to kill!!!!
RJC. haha. i complained after EVERY qn.
shall do an easier paper later :)
but in any case,
i learnt alot of things lohz... :)
so i hope come out difficult den i know how to do.
-evil luffter-.

just kidding. i might not get it either :)
aHhz!! gonna sleep late tonite...=[
gotta do more do mi bu past 2 days.
a few more days and i'm done .

ya

hoo

!!!!!

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 11/21/2004 08:18:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

WHY AH. ?

i realised at major sporting events,
singapore team almost always wins the first game,
by that, they set a great pace for themselves.
but shortly after, loses that pace.
and finally, almost all the time we lose in the end.
why ah?
hmmmmm. mental strength?

haha. having said that,
must admit i'm skiving with e tv again.......
got the aviva badminton match (semifinals between singapore and malaysia).
waiting for the 20/20 show on cna at 7.30pm.

and after liu xing hua yuan which ended at 1.20 today
i got to watch f.i.r live.
but i dunoo if it's really live. should be i suppose.
wow, if so, faye's live is so bang.. -smiles-.
:)
suddenly felt so inspired about music.
about music makin.
wow. the sudden urge to learn the guitar.
i'm gonna get my free guitar from april soon.
*hehz* den maybe get jeff or someone to help me change the strings.
and i shall embark on the journey of self-learning~!
can't wait for that!!!! -GRINS-
den maybe go buy the Dummies for Guitar book as an aid.
i have so much time!!!! wOw.

feel like working.
but to earn the above $1000 kind is to like work every other day.
so boring!!!!
my aunt was abit against the idea of me working haha
she was like saying.. dun work lah. take the money go learn something.
learn a language...haha. then i was saying learn what, jap ah.
she say "no lah. try spanish" haha!!!!
but i kinda refuted the idea of not working...and tole her about my plan to go beijing haha.
den she ok ok loh. say..."u got go find out how to go not. the ticket not easy get leh. go as reporter lah! but, so many reporters, oso not ur turn one lah. hahaha."

haha. i agree man. =)
actually i just wanna go see thorpe and phelps.
i dun mind going to the swimming championships in Montreal next year anyways.
heee =)

really must start sourcing and planning already!
and maybe start UAN soon. maybe in jan or something.
december is meant for absolute play. and my aussie trip. :) :) :)

wanna learn drivinggg....
learn guitar....
one more language...
what else! :)

sigh and i was thinking just now.
should one's career be of one's interest or of one's responsibility.
eg, music...as interest, go pursue it though i might just be another mediocre playing in the field.
or...strive to work for UN. fulfil my human responsibility and bring education to the third world countries?
!:)!

oh wellsssss.... :)
basically, i dunoo how i dunoo why
i'm just in a mood of exuberance.
shrugssss. though i haven't touched an inch of my work i've set for myself.
since 8am.
shall do so tonite.
if not, i can wave a goodbye to Physics A.

stay hopeful
remain faithful
keep the confidence
and i'll ride on the wings of Fate.
wherever God brings me to,
i will accept it and let Him lead the way.
just like how Love leads the way.
-smiles-

currently in a mood of music.
feelin' so inspired and so touched by the ringing tunes and notes.
there are 88 keys on the piano.
just imagine the power of music that can come from the piano alone.
the number of beautiful melodies that can come from these 88 black-white keys.
well, now then, let your imagination run the wildest and the furthest
because there's no boundary to the amount of pieces that can come from the piano.
not at all :)

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 11/20/2004 05:48:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

s.n.a.o.r.g!

groans.
oli's out. i was so sad last nite till i teared for her departure.
c'mon. she's such a sincere tomboy.
and perhaps, life IS unfair.
how true is it when ken said sly onli has to smile and he gets the votes.
and with the judges slashing unpleasant comments at him,
i wonder if it was a boost for sly or doom for oli.
stupid ah lians and ah bengs.

haa.

another groan goes out to my uncelebrated boredom as of now.
slept at like 11.30 last nite. woke up at 8.
thought i would be charged up for physics revision.
but i just feel so sian!!!!
=(. very different from how i felt last nite.
i was quite excited about revising phy.
i think it's an interesting sub :))
sighhh.

anw. catch 20/20 [Sibling Secrets] on CNA at 7.30pm tonite :)
it features the Simpson sisters, as well as the Duff sisters. heh. :)
and there's Jennifer Aniston tmr. on channel I at 11.00pm i think.
=)

wuHa!

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 11/20/2004 09:07:00 AM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

yuppie!

ah ha! after today i'm so relaxed. :)
though there's still physics paper 3 n 5 to go.
=) =) =) =)
today we went to play badminton haha.
but din burn calories lah!
and concluded that toa payoh children are very cute.
inclusive of yours truly.
-grins-.

today's mCq...
alot of controversies. also cannot remember qns.
so dunoo if i wrong or corrack haha.
-shrugs-
but all i know is i was so panicked throughout.
cuz i realised i din shade my index number for physics MCQ.
and thought i was gonna lose 60 marks.
in any case...
still a do-able paper...
only thing is i read qn the qn doesn't seem to connect with my brain.
>_<
well, hope i do well lah! :) :)
really keeping my fingers crossed. =)

pray hard for me k!! =p

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 11/19/2004 07:31:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

boo!!!!

la di dummmmm!!!!!
watched e shutter today...
not as good as i expected =[
cuz recently kept listening to 93.3fm.
chong qing say until so nice so nice...
it's only just that nice...but there's a very good twist lahz..
i got scream once. haha. yf scared tio!!!!
LOL.
i think it's cos the face very disgusting lOrz...
den i realised if next time i ever get a bf.
i mean it's ever,
he will be very very very scared.
not cuz of the show
cuz i make him scared hahahahhaa...
i was tugging at yf the whole time lohzz..LOL

today's physics paper...
satisfactoryy. maybe cuz i haven't really discussed the whole paper.
haven't found out alot of mistakes...
1 mcq qn wrong..very gek sim =(
i write all e numbers down...just calculate can liaoz
but this phrase confused me:
"constant increase"....argghhhh.. =(
2 marks gone like that le. very expensive loh.
but nvm.

think i go zZZz now..later wake up prepare chem mcq.
must bu3 hui2 my carelessness for paper 2..
but the thing is 1 hour for 40 qns..
eat shit man. i get tricked oso duno i tink.
at least today...i will keep asking myself
"oh no they wanna trick me one rite..." haha!!!!
i tink chem no such time.
wish myself e luck!!!

slowly approaching holiday mood le..
and i'm getting happier and happier..=))))
cuz physics p3..got the weekend to prepare...quite relac.
=))))

hao le.. go change den zZzz le.. :)
to those takin exams...
we're nearing the end.YES!
and towards the end comes a new beginning.....

a new definition of life.
of enjoyment. =)

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 11/18/2004 05:16:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

=) =) =) =)

callin' for celebration!!!!
even God is tearing!!!!
the tears of joy :)
SEE. i DON'T have to touch maths EVER again.
ok, at least for the next 7 months :)
i'm happpy!!!
more of it it's cuz i don't have to do maths again :)
also cuz today's paper.........
other than reading qn wrongly =(
others still quite ok...plus careless here and there....
hope can maintain 80 above.
really hope 80 is enough for A.....
pweeese. n zui hao no more careless le!!!!

and i felt quite happy + gek just now.
yesterday i practised so much complex loci, n mclaurins. n parametric.
and they ALL din't come out
BOO!
-_-. in short. i wasted my whole afternoon yesterday. =_=........
=[
now i understand why my aunt says
"actually exam need alot of luck one leh!"
yeah lor yeah lor...if u spot topic come out u heng.
like me, spot liao no tio SUAY.
i onli remember spotting correct once.
that's o-levels lit. even my history spot wrong loh!!!
in the end anyhow tok cock.
why so unfair de. i always spot wrongly =(

ah!!!!! nobody will understand my jubilation right now!!!!!!!!!!!!! =) =) =) =)
no more mathsssss. HEEEEEEEEEE.
really hope can get A.
maths down.

left chem and physics.
whoohoooo!!!!!!!!!!
very good mood lah! =))))
must study chem soon.
maybe after a good nap :)
in this nice cozy weather.
:))

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 11/16/2004 01:15:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

wooweeyuperbapeedoopadorkepong!

repeat after me!
wooooo
weeee
yuppp
perrrr
baaaa
peeee
dooooo
paaaa
dorkkkk
keeerrrr
pooonng!!

YES! it's the MOST nonsensical word you've ever heard.
but it's a magic word! would you believe it?!
in e ancient times, witches who practised black magic would yell out these words..
but these words belong to the kinder witches,
who practised black magic for the benefit of the masses....
yuppp. read it while surfing just now. :)
however... the word was later manipulated by some evil witches
who wanted to bag all the benefits black magic would bring them...
that's why we never heard such a word in modern times already.
in cartoons...u'll just hear abbacadabra..

n u'll be quite surprised..
this word comes out in maths papers too.
ask u how many words you can form using e letters.
-_-

boredom's hitting me again. it's better now.
you have absolutely NO idea how damn freakin bored i was just now.
that i had to message a few people...
called shui and chatted...
well. that was after Charlie's Angels though.
think my hp bill gonna explode this month.
all e smses for taufik and oli. MAN.
the day i see them on the streets is the day they will go bankrupt.
i'm gonna ROB them.
use the money and pay for my hp bills.
as for the remaining sum. s.h.o.p.p.i.n.g.
:)

every year there will always be a teacher to say some very sensible thing to calm my nerves.
2 years ago, while i panicked about how the fugged up hell am i going to gulp down all the KMT CCP NAZI shit.
then the hairy teacher said "It's quality that counts, not quantity."
it makes you feel better rite!

then this year...my physics tutor tole me this:
"Whatever you practise now, you can be very sure it won't come out. Just practise your concepts!"
makes you feel better rite! :)

at least i did.
at least now there's the excuse for coming online to relax.
at least now....i have an
excuse :)

noneeless, excuses are reasons without a basis.
so i'm back to square 1 now.
all worried again!!

but i'm quite glad yuling gave me a lashing that day.
though i feel like chopping her up for cheating me today. =[
she reminded me how much people can do in a short period of 2 days.
while i sink into depression and drown myself with the worthless words of my tutor who tinks a B is a deserved grade for myself, others are busy working on the paper 2 to pull up their grades.
it's striking me double the impact rite now.

so now. all i will say is.
as far as i'm concerned.
i'm 80% confident of an A.
the remaining 20% lies with my paper 2.
as well as God, who will ultimately show me my direction.
i'll fight back and prove those wrong who think i can onli deservingly earn a B.
bleaH~!

okies dokes. let out all the pissified emotions. =)
then again, i'm faced with rj nj tj vj physics paper.
which shall i daringly attempt?

we don't hate learning, what we ALL are resisting is exams.
so can MO(l)E kindly scrap all exams please.
or if ever u wanna torture us,
dun give us 1 week break den torture us for 1 week can? though i know it's cos of the public holidays.
wanna examine us, one straight larh.
all the breaks in between make me feel so insecure.

siGh...i feel like meeting happy potter or legolas! :)
hope i can see harry potty riding on a broom tonite.
(or legolas on a white horse. woaH! prince charming!!!!)
to fetch me to visit hermone. =) =)
oh no oh no! shan't have the harry potter craze befall me.
actually right now. i just hope to see all my pals right in front of me.
heehee.
but neh. they are either all asleep or studying learning.
=)

anyway i'm so proud of yanzi!!!!
she got stomachache still so jian chi...
see the similarity between ahdi and yanzi :)
all very jian chi their meng xiang...
afterall, ren yin meng xiang er wei da!!!! =)
but but but...it can get very worrying too >_<
but i like yanzi when she said...
"dui zui you shen me yi yi ah?"
meaning lip-synching has no meaning at all.
even if the critics are gonna be mean and remark on her live.
she continues to do her own thing.
way to go man!!
tt's e attitude~! :)

time to hit the rj paper.
hope i don't doze off! :)

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 11/14/2004 11:11:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

=)

aHh! i dun like Pu Zhenya lah!!!!!!!!
she's so mean. feel like jumping into the tv to poke her ass.
>_<
but i missed half e showww. cuz haven't got home from aunt's house.
tutor came late.... =[
busy tutor. haha!
din ask alot of qns thoughhh. from 9+-11 oni.
=]
but i'm still feeling happy lehz..
thank God for giving me such a cute and supportive family.
though the norm is that u wun consider u aunt/uncle/cousins as ur immediate family.
nonethelesss..i think i have very cute cousins!!!
very bhb oso... =[ haha!!!! call dem mei nu all so happy :p
and bery understanding auntie and uncleee.
i owe em lots!
aHhh...not to forget..my granny who's getting more and more forgetful =(
that's quite worrrrying.
ahh! i just feel so xing fu now.

then came the sudden urge of wanting to migrate to aussie to open a farm haha!
or apple farm .... whatever u call it lah!!!!
i tink zinc will love it...cen too!
maybe yang too =)

aHh...
life's good.
the way it is now.
another.......12 more days and it's...

liberation.
aHhh!!!!!!!!!! so many things i can do!
first things first is do get promnite stuff ready! =]
den slowlyslowly learn......all e things i've been wanting to.
worry nots, keeping a slot for energy. hehheh!

i miss ahdi!!!

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 11/14/2004 01:28:00 AM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

kill my boredom pleaseee? :(

i'm really bored. >_<
finished 8 qns though. math.
feel like giving up le. stupid jl sae B more likely
den whyfore run e extra mile for A
abit xie4 qi4 liaoz...
might as well focus on phy and chem rite haha!
sian diao lor...
yesterday after he said tt i totally no mood liaoz
i feel like i'm wasting my time

but then again. abit of confidence came back. after talkin to stone.
haha! he oso damn careless i tink.
i'm SERIOUSLY wondering if 80's enough for A lor..
i'm quite confident of securing that.
but if cut off at 85,
i think i should just stop and give up. haha.

anyhow-o-how.
i'm really bored nowww.
sighhhhh.
hear me screeeeeaaaaammmmm
i'm SoOoOOoOOOoooo BORED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

no more motivation liaoz.
KEW ME.
>_<
i'm going to call lianz and scream
buhz!

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 11/12/2004 11:46:00 AM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

*pulls hair*

aHh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
my motivation's gone!!!!!!!!!!!!
slept at 11. woke up 7.
8 hours of sleep;
should be enough right?
den i sat at my table at 8+. tried to do phy mcq.
do until Q6......
i -kok- on table zZz.
*slaps myself*
den i slept on my bed.
woke up and did 1 mcq. yep!!

gotta go aunty's house sooon.
hope she doesn't nag about me going orchard ydae.
=[ i called her just now and she asked..heng i quickly divert
need to relac ma. besides i really had a great day! =)

meeting yy to get math notes.
couldn't find mine :(
besides, even if i did. i think it would be blank.
nvm. shan't talk cock anymore.
u noe wat. i reallly HATE reading notes.
but i think i'm a bit confused...haha so i better clarify some approximations stuff fer stats.

i hope daph gets out today. not oli.
but somehow oli's always the not-safe one.
those rich businessman, can stop anyhow voting not.
your votes that come in thousands, make our votes very INSIGNIFICANT leh.
though i like daph. i think she shouldn't have stayed longer than last week.
-shrugs-.

a la carte arafat's gone. hhmmmmmm.
gotta go out le~!!
byebye!

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 11/11/2004 01:28:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

misssin u.

HAHA!
i'm not missing anyone lahs.
maybe ahdi onli.
now that i'm hearing him sing MISSING U on radio.
radiocasting e show at chinablack.
realised shui, jj, me, ni, zi, na...quite lucky.
we were kinda standing at this ulu place.
cannot see them at all de.
den got this kind hearted lady from starhub gave us V.I.P tix.
so we got into the vip area haha.
den got 5 of us...
actually is only jj shui and me got...
den needed 3 more for ni zi na to come in
but the starhub lady onli had 2 left.
haha. and guess what i did!!!!
i gave mine to ni na zi. hahaA!
but i was caught by the security guard...
den i was like
"hUh!? i gOt what [pointed to my shirt]...."
"Eh?!?! how come dun have?!"[act shocked.]
"ah....sorry sorry...i think my sticker dropped inside the vip area leh..., you wait ah. i go back find den come back find u."

and i went without looking for e sticker, let alone go look for e guard again
MUAHAHA!
i'm a genius at lying to people.
alot of stupid memories when i still used to chase energy.
kinda miss the van feeling..
=(. but what to do. i have more important things at hand to complete.
nonetheless, it's ending soon.
i miss ahdi leh.
i wonder how's my nanyang bearbear liaos....................
hope he nv throw away neh.
:p

waitin for ren wo ao you to start.
which is pretty soon.
today's activities've zapped me of all my energy.
went to kTv at k-executive from 11-4 haha...
sang like mad!!!! :)
but damn happy. if got chance i will sing I DON'T WANNA MISS A THING publicly.
that will help a hellota people relieve stress.
but please don't luff at me. HEE.
denn...shui treated us to GustO.
=) thanks for e treat GAL.

i'm almost half dead.
gonna sleep early.
tmr start to do p2 maths.
:)

i'm bored neh.
i really am.
plus tire.

go watch tv le~! buaibuai~!

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 11/10/2004 08:50:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

hMmMm.

i'm hungry now. oh noooo. but i'm gonna sleep soon.
so i shall sleep away my hungerrrrr. -grins-
today's math was pretty okie..
but not as easy as i thought
i kinda expected that kind...
go in, kiao kah, finish in one hour...
u know that kind? haha.
but today's was like, i kinda took 2hour20mins finish like tt..
but managed to redo some qns to check.
so can secure marks. and managed to spot careless mistake!!
1 can anyhow write 3 haha! how foolish can i get. :)
but i still got a few careless mistakes.. =(
-10 marks. i hope will stop there.
quite confident wun minus more than 20 lahz...hee.
but i heard to secure A neeed 80 and above.
sigh!!!!

quite gek sim before e paper oso. i wanted to catch afternoon nap.
den e neighbour renovate house. keep drilling and drilling
nv sleep lor....
den i keep feeling so detached from the world...
like in my own bubble space ahaha...
not v alert lah.
but heng everything still quite ok. :)
at least i hope so.

still got paper2 though. havent touched nor revised.
so rusty le...today oso relax mood le hee.
got 1 week break.
tmr going out to celebrate shui's b'daE :) :)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY GAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

right now all i'm hoping for is smooth sailing of e papers..
and just cross my fingers hard enough to eliminate the chances of my pracs ruining my potential A grades...
yepppps.
but i was quite surprised...toked to viv that day
she said we're not supposed to get positive tests oso...
cos is add equal amounts... wun hav color change.
den shift 1 is SO4(2-) shift 2 den SO3(2-) *shrugs*
maybe onli for nj lah~!
see. i'm damn geng geng yu huai one.
but at least u know where you really stand.
i'd rather not keep thinking i'm right and only to receive shock on results day.
in any casE
i just hope things go the way it is now haha!!!!! :)

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 11/09/2004 11:02:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

bO_Om.

dunoo why this title...but did i remember wrongly?
energy got a song called boom issit?
or a song with "boom" inside haha.
miss energy lehs.
=[
or rather, ahdi lah. wanna see him in his specSss!!! :) :)

okie dokes. today's chem paper.........
all i can sae is i suppose almost the whole hwa chong population rejoiced after it...
as compared to what we normally do, i would say it acts more as a stimulant than depressant.
hope i handed in a good paper. :) no careless mistakes i hope.
-crosses fingers-

tmr's math. p1.
YEAH. the one i failed for prelims. 48/100. what a joke mAN.
i decided to give up p2(statistics) for p1.
in the end, 48 for P1 and 65 for P2.
-_-.

feeling the much unneeded, incessant apprehension.
i HOPE i'm more or less ready.
all i'm hoping and praying hard for now is

CLEAR of carelessness.
PRESS my calculator properly.
YES.
luck is all i need.
no.
CAUTION is all i need.
<:

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 11/08/2004 11:03:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

memory re unloaded.

haha! i'm bored again so shall start crappin.
i think studying while ur radio yaks away is a good idea.
at least it keeps you awake.
-grins-.

tried to memorise all e equations...
now still got food chem. feel like forfeiting it lehs.
din touch physical chem at all. all e calculations. shits.
damn scared i lost touch and rusty liao. den jiu win liao lo.
30 marks in that section lohs.
organic chem oso nv really touch...
except like i did 3 questions last nite while watching summer scent haha!
sigh nex week de who n huiyuan break up lo. >_<>

here: a revisional crap for food chem plus a shitty analogy :)
when u stir the starch, plus heat,
you will cause a certain swelling of the starch grains,
due to breaking of intermolecular h-bonding, plus the leeching of pectins.
there, your starch grains swell up.
that's why the viscosity increases.
however, upon further agitation and stirring,
the starch granules BURST! and you call that rupture.
then viscosity decreases and becomes watery.
upon cooling, you will the hydrogen bonds reform and
there, you get the viscosity back.

now, compare:
when we study, we try to memorise,
and our brain acts like a sponge, trying to absorb whatever shit that's on the paper.
den our brains start to swell.
here, there are two paths: swell and you become smarter.
OR swell and you get headaches.
either way, you get more and more stressed up.
until a point of time, you scream:
"AH! i give up! dun wan memorise liaos!"
den you end up watching TV and singing and blogging instead.
there, you relieve stress, you become less "viscous".
hOwever, upon "cooling",
after some time of enjoyment. you realise
"wah lao! shit not enough time. dun wan fail again leh!"
den you suay, you viscous again.

HAI. good.
pai seh ah, if my gelatinization of starch process is cocked up
from memory lah. >_<.
memory quite bad rite.
see. ;p

back to the shit papers.............-grins-.

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 11/07/2004 07:56:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

m.i.l.o

i'm convinced that m.i.l.o increases your metabolism rate haha!
"we are not [can't remember what this is supposed to be], we are dolphins!
we are not children, we are champions!"
haha.

realised that my bowels will be cleared after drinking a mug of milo.
sort of lah. totally different if i drink milk...hMMM!

yesterday i met a very paranoid aunty.
cuz i was queueing up for a bus at e tpy interchange then there was the metal bars/railings to guide the queue right.
then the bus uncle motioned us to board the bus.
den the aunty was so darn kan chiong!
she went to rao4 the metal bars.......when she could have just stood at the side to wait for the Q around e metal railing to clear then follow them up the bus.
she behaved like she was so afraid that there will be too many people and hence, take up all e available seats.
understable cuz she was carrying bags of grocery.
but not understable cuz it's a double-deck bus.
HMMMM.
din mean to feel mean. but she was too kan chiong liao.
kiasu.
den i frowned at her haha!

food chem is
enjoyable

for reading.
not for memorising.
so mrs lee was right.
chem would be so much more fun if there weren't anything to study for!!!!

heeeeeee. all for general knowledge right.
tt's why i like gp.
something that is applicable to our daily lives.

listening to yanzi now. for the.................
684th nth time.
yue ting yue hao ting!
anyway. leandra's out. i love the way she sings ben.
lost out not by calibre, but by popularity.
HAI!
pretty shocked daphne's still around.
not that i'm anti-daph. but....
she's getting more and more boring week by week.
she's more suited for children's shows...blessed with that kind of voice.
a very pleasant girl but really it's time for her to go.

how should it be that a mediocre's still left at this stage of the competition?
i thought the days of jerry ong should have been enough.

ladidums. later got liu xing hua yuan 1 haha!
gonna watch though it's like such an old showw.
vvvv sweet lah...haiz...

left t2o more tracks to the end of the nth time listening to yz.
which means i have to start reading my notess.
food chem is killing me haha.
funny. but i learnt quite abit of things haha.
maybe cuz it's my first time reading, not merely flippin the notes.
all e best to myself.

fat burns 2 and a quarter times more energy than carbohydrates and proteins. :) :)

can't wait for the end of As.
i can see AHDI again.
i can wOrk.
i can go learn driving!
i can go learn another langggg.
i can go UAN to learn stuffff. composing and stufff.
i can learn gUitar.
i can finish my gr8piano!!!!
i can earn $ for bejing08!
i can go AustraliA!

that's what you call a LIFE.
L-(elle)evating Interest from First-hand Experience.

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 11/06/2004 08:04:00 AM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

yawn. bush-bash-bah-boom! won.

*yawns*.
mich was disappointed that kerry lost the elections.
hee. she was the taboo of her family haha!
guess americans have decided to give bush another 4 years to either hone his terrorist skills or crumble the economy.
hee. oops, i'm not anti-bush lah haha in fact i tole mich i wanted bush to win.
give him the chance to finish whatever he has to in iraq.
bush has a baby face while kerry has a granddad face.
both are very cute i find.
then i think either yokeyun or yeeling brought up the possibility of having bush the pres and kerry the vice pres to get a cheery kerry bush.
why not? i think that's a very interesting path to pursue...

in any case,
GLOBALISATION din come out.
yes. it DIDN'T come out.
actually it did. about some MNCs stuff. but i thought i would have sounded more convincing if the question had slashed on the cultural imperialism part.
SOB.
i was so excited lor. cos i thought "aiya globalisation confirm come out nia. just how it comes out only. pray hard hard come out the way i want leh." but it dint.
so i took quite some time deciding what i should do.
and finally decided on this.

qn 12 : "Far too much attention has been spent on beauty products and treatment." Do you agree?

what's your take on that? i hope i didn't meander and get out of point. in fact, i think my scope was too narrow. :( adding to that flaw, is the plebeian use of language :(. it was like ME conversing and arguing through paper. but it could be a blessing in disguise. =) just hope i got my point through effectively lah! anyway, it was hard to paraphrase beauty products and treatment anyway.

din feel as if i handed in a splendid piece of work.
a very "i think i did an okay job" feeling.
totally different from after my lit paper which i shed a bucket of tears for.
haha! call me silly if you want..
i was darn sad cuz i thought that would be my last essay on mockingbird..
i gave it my all, my emotions and stuff.
that's how much i adore TKM.
that's how emotional i am.
and that's prolly how i got my A1. haha!!!!
besides, i'm those kind who always get 12/13 out of 25 for every essay one lor......
my class did very well heee. still so proud of 4/4.
all A1s and A2s i think. majority with the former.
pure lit class anyway. and felt so "yay! never dui bu qi miss foo." who was both our lit and form teacher.
can still recall the times when she would storm out of the class out of exasperation because my class always dun read lit text de. HAHA!

back to topic. then hor, i was crossing my fingers, hoping that hor, globalisation will come out leh~!!!~~!!~~!!!
but it didn't. ARGH.
came out some choice vs destiny.
:)
i had like 40 minutes for AQ so i felt quite funny and insecure when people told me there wasn't enough time for AQ.
i was like "shit mans. did i miss out a qn."
i also oversummarised lor. 113 words only. HAI.
whatever it is, hope my AQ will pull me up.
i just dunked whatever i had in my heart and mind down onto the paper.
i liked my ending though

"indeed, destiny lies in our choice."

pray hard for me man. as i will pray for u guys too.
i'm just hoping for a b3 and above to apply for comm. studies haha!
best is get A2...dun dare hope for A1..though mdm toh did try to spur me on by asking me aim for that......
i think A1 for those Humanities people one lah....
those kind you talk to them, you only understand the
"and" "the" "he" "she" words haha!

gotta chiong for math and chem.
hope i dun sleep while revising chem.
which i just did.
=[
jarnei jiayou~!~!

to jiahui, loojean, 4/4 classmates, 66 classmates, and ALL my palssss.
JIAYOU~!~!~!~!~!

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 11/04/2004 04:23:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

cherry kerry bush.

guess what! after reading singapore snapspots i went to do a follow up on the US Presidential Elections.
that was about 10+ to around now.
took a quick shower and decided i have to hit the papers again.

i think bush will win. though chances are very high that they will recount Ohio's votes.
20 EV worth there.
it's 254 EV versus 225 EV, in Bush's favour. if i didnt remember wrongly.

i would cast my popularity vote to Mr. John Nice Kerry.
he's a very cute personality heh.
i saw this snippet where he caught sight of a camera.
and he took a few steps back and did a superbly clowny wave.

actually i think both the Democrats and Republicans have good ideas to sell.
somehow i feel Bush gives people some sense of security.
though i also believe he's a fundamentalist himself haha!
maybe i'm still quite stuck with what cheney said...
"As if Al-Qaeda would be more impressed with our softer side."

as much as i hope to see John Nice Kerry leading in action
and revive global economy somehow,
i feel Bush needs to be given extra time to settle the unsettled in Iraq.
and if he really retains his Presidential position,
i really hope he reviews his foreign policies.
Somehow i feel he's a very mistaken and perhaps, maligned guy.
in fact i hope to believe that he is altruistically concerned to keep US safe.
hai. feeling quite powerless and small now again.
quite biased ah. Indonesia Pres. Election also not so much coverage.
USA one zhen de bu shi whole day repeat same thing haha.
so imagine from 10 to 5, how many repeats i have watched
keke.

that's how bored i am.
(=o=)

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 11/03/2004 05:50:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

i love the morning sun. :)

i woke up at 6, then 7 today.
cuz my hp rang at 6 and 7 today.
cuz i set my hp alarm to hail at 6 and 7 today.
therefore i woke up at 6 and went back to sleep.
then opened my eyes at 7 today.

what's my point?
i woke up early today!
and i had a good 8 hour sleep.
*smiles*. therefore. i'm in a GOOD mood.
(= can come bully me if you want. won't scream at u.

then i walked to my study table at 8am.
and realised that the morning sun can't be more comfortable than anything else.
:) certainly does inject some vitality into some gong head.

i'm overblogging. hai. but go out waste time oso leh.
so might as well just blog loh.
-grins-

chatted with mich and jiahui last nite. i was so bored.
and feeling so neither here nor there.
u know like, u have 4 thick files which when stacked together, are a 30-cm ruler high?
and u're so stressed up because you know you HAVE TO finish revising them.
but u know you prolly don't have the time.
bO_Os.

think i'll just select a few pieces out to study.
plus i'm not gonna read my notes already.

shan't spoil my moood. As officially starts tmr with a BANG!
GP first.
GLOBALISATION
EDUCATION
SOCIAL
will come out right?
:p

still thinking if i should go out n have lunch with aunty.
haha! feel so bad. last night she was like
"have lunch together lah"
and i was like "see my mood lah!"
aiyo. since she's the elder, should be she see mood and i, being the obedient "orh orh" one.
haha. wonder how's yuling doin'. :)
these few days spent with her realised i have found another fwen who can do stupid things with me
=))))
plus i hope she can hit her target, l1r5 below 20.
no, i say 18! jIAyOU!
and jiahui tOO!!!!!
and we were all from NPCC.
(=

my aunt and uncle agreed that they should get me a laptop
i wanted it so badly last time
now also not excited.
cuz i might just overuse and within a matter of months
i'll have to send it for repair.
bo hwa leh.

but i dun mind havin both an updated PC and a notebook.
*heehee*
okie dokes. i shall return to my GP notes.
the morning sun cures all red spots in the head.

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 11/03/2004 09:10:00 AM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

ai(0_o)yOh!

AIYO!
just feel like blogging heh. taking a break from reading e GP materials. so many thingsss! (=
i hope globalisation comes out. though i may just forsake that question as well.
i remember i equipped myself with shanmugaratnam's education speech for BT II, praying hard that education would come out.

and it did!

but i din't do in the end. haha.
mannsss. what i'm more afraid of is entering the exam hall with no explicit examples. )= plus my proficiency in the language is nothing more than a mediocre's.

the last resort is to cook up my own statistics heh heh!!!!
but those old men marking our papers aren't exactly as senile as we hope/think them to be. their brains are prolly twisted 180 deg. more than ours.
that either makes them 180 times geekier than us or 180 times more senile than us! ;p

let's see. if i'm not wrong, there will be some jokers out there who would (re)take their exams without any preparation at all. that means it's quite likely that they will give dumb answers like MEAT HAVING PORES CLOGGED UP, THUS, THE CHANGE IN COLOR.

i would really love to see the markers' reactions!
would they frown: >_< how dumb can singapore students get..................
or take it lightheartedly and luff it off. then during some coffee break or something, share it with their fellow markers..

oh hello johnny, guess what? i was marking the chemistry papers and came across this answer about the clogging of pores. it was utterly hilarious.
HAHAHA!

my impression of the markers are old and beardy, fat and tall. hmmmm.. something like the dunoo-who in HARRY POTTER? you know? that one!? the one that always helps potty out! yes that one...

then the room will be piled with mountains of exam scripts.
and their table, apart from the table-light, will be 10 boxes of red pens.
not only that, a mug of splendid coffee.

could they be sitting in 6 rows of 5s marking out papers? i mean like the way we do when we take our exams..

i wanna sseee how it's like!
would there be a chance that they mark until they're so darn tired and they just give a full mark for that?! HEEEE.
i hope mine's in that pile!!!!

wishful thinking.
=p

but my dearest booboo, xx's right. u never know how they treat our exam scripts over there. sometimes will get lost one ma rite? i mean accidents happen.
and perhaps when that happens, they will anyhow give you one mark. maybe the average mark lah!
I HOPE MINE GETS LOST.

F A T hope.

hope i can go over to australia end of this year.
(=
somehow i dun feel like entering university yet.
suddenly i feel like travelling to Barcelona.
or Venice.
or say, Paris.

all these countries are like so romanticcccccc.
wheeee. (=

then i wanna go new zealand. ausssss. the more quiet and peaceful countryside there.....=p

then i'll go work for United Nations!
maybe i should quit dreaming nowwww and go read my GP stuff again.
-grins-

great. i've had my daily dose of day-dreaminggg.!!!

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 11/02/2004 04:45:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets