my cat high pri kids! :)

took a pic of them yesterday, my last day there :(
but nvm, acs kids will just be as cute yeah!
kids what. (:


marcus on the left, and eugene on the right. marcus' a volleyballer haha! he's got this very typical boy look lah i think. u know those kind of face they draw on your chinese textbook last time!? :) then marcus very talkative lah. or maybe that's not the word. touchy touchy boy but yes mich, that's just him haha :).

andrew's face is SO SMALL!! very quietly mischievous la. very cute boy..
yesterday he accidentally knocked his head :( pain.

then ignatius is one loud kid. v cheeky...tsktsk.


benedict and dominic are brothers! dom's mich's fav. haha! i think they both have very very gorgeous eyes!!
very cute boys!! (: dominic very cute, benedict the older one as cute but less mischievous oso..i think.
all these are based on my 3 days with them lah..haha..maybe wrong mah :p


kenneth was SOOOOOOOOOOO notty yesterday!!
played tug of war with him, together with ignatius and jeremy (p.s: jeremy's one very very very naughty kid!! but so round and so cute. he's the one behind dominic in the second pic, first part. ;p).
and oh yes, tug of war, kenneth was like the rope la. haha..
kenneth is very cute :)
michael's VERY intellectual. those kind do work first then play.
boys should be like tt! (: he was very gracious in letting me take a photo of him lah!
as u can see from the pose! haha ;)

kids are cute ah! (:

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 3/31/2005 08:55:00 AM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

u know what!! :)

He answered my prayers
and YES. im super oooooooober happy!! (:
couldnt stop smiling from city hall back to home:)

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 3/29/2005 10:43:00 PM

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:(

today my first day of work at cat high pri sch...
first day with the kids, or no, 2nd day actually.
butbut. it might be my last few days too..
cos xiao4 zhang3 wants me to go to anglo chinese :(

i think my kids here are cute. u know.
dun wanna leave :(

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 3/28/2005 09:10:00 PM

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zhong yu!

*yawns* oops did i just yawn. ok anyways.
finally la, i found the time to upload some bdae pics i took with my squad and my s66classmates (:
rites,
so here goes.....................


when the bdae cake came heh heh. thanks squaddies (:


making a bdae wish (:


blow blow blow! i hope my wish will come true!!! (:
it's nothing to do with a person whose name starts with M and ends with L lah.
friends, pls!


staring at the black forest ice cream cake frm swensens.
yummy!


pose pose!
19 liao, OLD LIAO SIA. sad.
but nahmind, young at heart :)
and in Someone's eyes, im still a baby!!!! (:


with my b-loved squadmates!!
muaks muaks muaks muaks muaks muaks muaks muaks muaks muaks!
that's 10 muaks!! (:
my 10th smate is stella who currently is back in hk to study.


that's me with my hc classmates. grins (:
they actually bought this small breadtalkk strawberry cake
which, more than half of it was filled with cream.
oh man!!!!!!

anyway, days've been quite packed lately :)
no more time to slack.
(:
live life to the fullest baby!

to any of my friends who are reading this:
if at any point of time ure feeling down im always there for u k (:

muaks.

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 3/27/2005 03:26:00 PM

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uni uni.

i realised NUS has SO LITTLE choices.
once engineering is out, it's almost all out.
sucks.
talk abt having the diversity of choices, hur hur.

gonna go idp to hand in my sydney/melb uni application.
please, i hope everything goes smoothly.
pray that there's no last minute withdrawal. like my aunt will go,
"ah not enough money" i will just hang myself.
just kidding. (:

pray hard pray hard!!
have faith, ask and you shall be given :)

today's Good Friday
the day Jesus died on the cross for all of us.
got really touched during church today, no idea why as well.
just teared qt abit. and decided to go forward to confess..
and accept the fact that Jesus DID die for us.
just thought of what mdm toh told us before..
true love is real love when it reaches a sacrificial stage...
very thoughtful, rite.

so actually 25/march/2005 is a very important day for me as well!:)
im really happyy. (=

read this from someone's nick on my msn:

1 cross + 3 nails = 4 given.

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 3/25/2005 06:32:00 PM

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(:

troubles aside, i think today is going to end on a good note :)
im gonna take care of some kids at cat. high primary! (:
i am i am i am i am excited!!!!
i am going to put my patience to the test.
hopefully by the end of the work term,
i am a much much better person :)
i shant let the kids at aunty rita's place to ruin my heart for kids :)
they are wonderful beings, arent they :)

anyway i think my driving instructor is quite crap.
but wow, he could guess that i came frm a girls' sch and am the only child.
shrugs. im not spoilt what.
just that today's mood really not good.
i heaved a super heavy sigh.
but anyhow,
i know it will work out well ultimately!!!! :)

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 3/23/2005 08:33:00 PM

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sometimes...

sometimes, you think that the best way to avoid the quarrel and misunderstand and unhappiness and the likes,
is to just keep quiet and let it pass.
because at such times, u think it's meaningless to just continue repeating yourself time and time again.
ure tired and sick of defending your thoughts and whatever.
but i think, these are also the times that make you feel jaded.
and feeling jaded is not the way.
shrugs.

to be frank,
it's not that im very detached from my family
but i just dislike the thought of being bonded.
i dont want to think of so many things..
i just wanna fly away to some far away land
live my life, earn my money
and send some back.
until they understand that some things cant be forced
that will be whats on my mind.

even though i may live to regret this thought...
because family is important.

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 3/23/2005 09:45:00 AM

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it's not just normal pms.

it's been such a long time i cried so hard
for so long... (>15 mins. so it's not my quarter-of-an-hour depression.)
this happens when u've been so contented and thankful for a long time
and when a huge quarrel comes in your way
u're like suffering a knock on the head
the knock that triggers all the tears.
and so damn, now my eyes are swollen.

i really havent felt so bad before.
and my aunt hasnt been that angry with me before,
shrugs. i felt almost inhumane.
i really never wanted to be rebellious.
but i have no idea, parents just seem so paranoid sometimes
they think ure on the rebellious side when u dont go their way.
i mean, chances are that they speak from the bottom of their hearts,
they want the best for their children...
but i think it's time parents drop their expectations and accept their children for the way they are...
sometimes.

but im so glad i feel so much better.
after talking to yuying, kor and loonlunz.
i think kor helped the most though. he gave me real fresh and new perspectives.
=)
im determined to become a better person
and prove to my aunt that God made me a better person,
not for worse.
it's my goal for now.
i shall be mindful of what i think, what i say, and how i behave.

i feel GOOD.
even after all the wails,
life's still beautiful.
TRUST ME ON THAT. (:

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 3/21/2005 08:44:00 PM

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i hope.

there are so many things i hope for... that i pray for.

but ive been praying for this for the past 3 days.
Lord, i really pray that yuying can go sydney with me..
and to those out there..
do help me keep this in your prayer...

i dont know how important that is, but it surely holds some importance.
i want my honours..
and im heading sydney for honours.

im just praying so hard for no hiccups.
yups.

i went to LIFEbookshop ydae (:
bought myself a new bibile, NIV version.
so now i have both King James and NIV(:
bought stacie orrico's debut album for only $14.90.

kinda touched by two songs, one by tune, and the other by lyrics.

and yes, a reminder..
help me pray hard hard all right (:

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 3/21/2005 02:34:00 PM

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thankss. (:

thanks to all who sent over their well wishes! :)
loo (ure e first haha!), ben, huiling, shui, kor bryant, celina, janson, michelle, qianfu, jingyi, yaosheng, nicole, lianz, nutz, jiani.. the list will continue. it's onli 20 mins into my bdae haha! (:
early birds ah there people.

+ rina, lk, xin, yiwang, cousin qian, sharon, jieqi, melvin, abby, diana, aunty ps and aunty lc, wanniz, fang, leager, shuyi, yy..my uncle n aunt, and yuying!!! :)and an unknown person who sent over this picture msg. but sad enough, panasonic phones dont support pic-msgs ah!

i really appreciated yuying's call from melbourne. ah! (: i WILL pray for ya to go sydney uni with me ok. i really hope you get it. really. (:

anyway, sly's such a copycat. singing jay's song just the way it sounds like. -_-.
look, if u were to ask david tao do the same thing with jay's song and vice versa,
they wont come up with such imitations.
they are the real talents man.
trust daniel ong to actually exclaim TALENTED SLY.
and what, sly talks like ah bengs.
and (with the exception of zinc and sharon) especially,
i think sly's just another lian-attractor. in general that is.
OH WELL.

anyway, i cant stand, yes i cant stand actresses who try so hard to please everyone.
crowd pleasers.
that explains why im fatally attracted to stef sun.
she's popular just being herself.
she doesnt have to smile more or act nicer than she already is.
one example of a FANNtastic crowd pleaser?
there u go, THAT says it all (:

plus talk about lip-syching
OH MAN. do it properly lar.
when u go up that stage, u're more than a vase
and i hope those bimbos actually understand tt.

look at the vast difference in the style, and star quality between leehom and singapore singers. (excluding yanzi tanya and the likes with quality talent.)
man, that just explains why we're never gonna make it THAT big.
talk about our star awards, i think it's a shame.
compare it to the Oscars, the inherent star appeal is something that only our actresses can lust for in their next next next next life.

looking at the way our idols shake so amateurishly
OH MAN. tt's what i wont expect from fantasia, kelly, latoya, carrie.
reuben maybe.
but since i cant even shake. i will SHUT UP. :)
singapore entertainment industry.................hopeless lah.

until diya comes into picture, it's hopeless. (:

happy birthday to myself! :)

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 3/19/2005 12:27:00 AM

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yippeee with squaddies :)

im so thankful i have them in my life.
the years go by, we just get stronger and better.
we rock ok. 7 years of friendship (with shan, 9!)
muaks. thanks for the bdae treat and company today
enjoyed myself thoroughly!!! (:

i made a little confession today.
ah, i dont have any feelings for him.
but i just think he's got great qualities (:
impressive!!

AH. THANKS MY DEAREST SQUADDIES (:

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 3/17/2005 11:16:00 PM

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(:

i bought like 5 tops (2 tees, 1 tube, 1 offshoulder, 1 tank) from 1 shop.
ah. nicenice. im gonna frequent there (:

driving's so fun...first lesson todae and got to drive around the circuit..
but darn, i hav some problems with the steering wheel.
AH HA.
i duno how much to turn and stuff.
rights, it will come with experience yes?

what else.
my aunt is the one who wants to send me to sydney straight.
and now i wanna stay.
can save the $ for future investments heh heh!
sian. i want 2 stay.
but frankly, i prefer the physio course at sydney.
except for the disrobing part that is. that sucks.

ok. my resolution.

im very happy!!

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 3/16/2005 03:13:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

resolution!!

i know it's not the new year but ehss.
i have a new resolution. and that's to keep off computer, as much as i can.
i shouldn't come online for the sake of coming online.
it's not an effective way to rot away my time, sad to say.

i have 1 project 2 do (:
and that's to do cross stitch and use that patch to make into a make up case with special compartments (:
cool ah!!!!
inspired by the Esprit case i saw in Melbourne.

so yeps, resolution 1 : keep my place tidy and neat. (so far im proud of this because ive been just TOO free. wait till sch starts and the saying about leopard with spots.)
resolution 2 is to keep off the internet as much as possible.
or even when im online, i should NOT just blogsurf and stare at the screen like an idiot staring at a wall.

time is precious.
so is life.

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 3/16/2005 08:27:00 AM

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hey

tt's a lame topic. but ah. im tired. (:
had a gathering with gxyz. that's a post-bdae thing. (:
what else.
i passed my btt. starting lessons on wed (:
gym tmr with mich.
hoo! we've got a target to hit by july(for mich) and april for myself.
yeah.
WE ROCK ok.

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 3/14/2005 11:42:00 PM

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it just irks me to see 18 year olds (hello they are well going to end their teens) typing like a typical neighbourhood sch lian. i have nothing against lian, neither do i outwardly discriminate them, but i just feel they dont seem to belong to my world of friends. OK that's very unbecoming of me to say such things.

but it's just hairstanding when u see people typing like
"i sO in lUB wiB my bF whO iZz mY lAOgOng nEHxxxx."
do you even pronounce LOVE as LUB? ERPS, it rhymes.

nvm. it's just cos my friends dont type like that.
and im GLAD it's that way. (:
typing the normal way is classy.
typing aHnEhXxXXx i bERy hePpYXx wiBB uUu. is childish, and full of pent up actcuteness.

DONT type like that when ure approaching the end of ur teens.
it's so sick. and it makes people sick.
it's a plaything and in thing when ure in ur 14-15s.
and a taboo when ure after 17.

goosebumps.

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 3/13/2005 11:00:00 PM

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my procrastination is getting bad.
i ought to spank myself with my pooh pooh.
as if that hurts ;p

pink's try this is nice.
(:
i got that for only like 9 bucks.

whatelse.
church @ mich's church was especially touching.
and everything just coincides.
just as i was asking joshua to help me get e planetshakers CD and piano scores and couldnt really get my hands on them,
(p/s: he said i could get them @ suntec and i just returned frm suntec last nite when i asked him. i kinda felt it wasnt fated man.)
mich's church (elim church) offered this concert on fri where planetshakers'd be there.
sometimes, u just gotta believe.

talk about my ideal man.
AH.
jingchuan and lisheng.
AWW.
yes. im watching the kindred spirit.
hAHa.

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 3/13/2005 05:54:00 PM

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just some random thoughts :)

some things are very magical, u just feel the connection.
n im very glad qianfu feels this same connection as i do :)
still, im giving myself more time for this... (:
had a really great talk with qian.
about how some things are pre-destined, how some things are things that God has already planned way before today.
and this links. it just links to the line i picked up from a book in MPH today.
[while waiting for e gang].
sometimes, have you wondered how come u'd pick that book up where there are mountain heaps of other books around in the bookstore? shrugs...

i bought 2 really good books...
one is the John Mason's Impossible IS Possible.


and the other, Rick Warren's The Purpose Driven Life.


i can feel that im embarking on a new path in life.

:)

sometimes it's just believing that you are a really lucky child already.
if im to die today, i think ill go a happy child.
really :) n im thankful that i can feel tt way.

anyways, today was tiring. my feet hurt.
the IT fair @ suntec. OH MAN. so many people till i got irritated.
ate pastamania at like 8. so late right.
shall go jog tmr before gg mich's church.

goodnite!

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 3/12/2005 09:54:00 PM

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i finally know what to make for my sista.
i bought some materials, ready to get crafty (ha!) but damn im down with headaches and whatnots.
just feeling so lethargic.

and yes, ive yet to touch u noe, even touch my french.
noitanitsarcorp. (note: this isn't that skill picked up from CLOSER.)

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 3/11/2005 04:57:00 PM

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my running hairpin.

feeling QQWERTYUIOASDFGHJKLXCVBNM (a skill picked up from closer.) because i lost my hairpin. and my friends will know i dont really have a lot of accessories. but i quite like this hairpin and i have to lose it. :(. plus my hair is getting long and messy! >_<

think i may wanna go cut my hair today. my sis' ROM tmr. but i think i just spent 20 bucks on this great book. im kinda BROKE. broke bloke.

i think i just ran 10 rounds. haha. i have no idea and i think that's crazy. i din know where the extra fuel came from - today's run was more energetic than usual, really. i suppose it's cos i overate yesterday haha! :p

ok anyway mikalah got in and that's )(*&^%$#. whatever.
anyhow, anyway,
carrie nadia mario are in!!!!:)

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 3/11/2005 08:42:00 AM

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no jog+goodfood=happy getting fat.

what kind of weird equation is that ;p
anyways. i intended to jog today but realised the stadium was occupied by some primary sch.
that forced me to walk back home and well, i climbed e stairs instead.
the sinful thing is, it's buffet later with my mummy's pals.
vegetarian buffet *smiles* i love vegetarian food.
great 2 eat once in a while. yummy yummy.

was blogsurfing just now. and found a few depressing blogs, again.
nvm. it happens to all girls.
i think im gonna get tt soon. :)

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 3/10/2005 09:46:00 AM

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carrie made me cry.

latoya made me cry last year.
so there, im gonna root, and stay rooted to carrie.
im gonna pray so hard every week that this sweet lil farm girl stays.
all the way to the finals.
speaking of latoya, i miss her. ):
i just kinda connected with carrie just now, maybe cus she's a piscean just as well.
o carrie :)

okie mario's cute. :)
and i think anwar's got an amazingly powerful voice.
yeps.
i hope mikalah gets out.

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 3/09/2005 09:43:00 PM

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french o french.

damn i MUST look at my french tmr. it's a must.
if not i think im gonna embarrass myself the next lesson.
i was so lost ydae cos i was late for like 15 mins and i think he did a lot of introductory parts tt time.
french is tough but it's quite fun :)
found a really excellent webby to aid my learning :)
yippie. tmr ill revise my french, then korean yeah.

and finally i got all the documentation done.
i hope im on the right track, i really do.
and so, nadal here i come. see u when im 30.
n ill be ur kid's godmama :)

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 3/09/2005 04:20:00 PM

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and so.......

and so im not blessed with a friendly face.
haha. just chatted with ah long. first time in how many years. 1.5 years.
he say i look quite fierce. =[
cant help it sia. but i cant smile whole day long too.
aiyo sian.
so im really unapproachable la. or rather...looks unapproachable.
help is needed.

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 3/09/2005 01:01:00 AM

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yuppies. :)

the plan smells fun and exciting.
all im hoping for is to have the determination to follow it thru.
anyhow, anyway,
once i start on it i probably cant look back.
nadal here i come.
hope my family renders me their support for what ive planned for myself.

nyp physio :)
u-sydney physio. :)
masters. :)
shant think about anything else more.

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 3/08/2005 12:16:00 AM

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im quite pissed. in fact, very.

im really not fond of doings where people will talk about As incessantly and self-evaluate the "what ifs n i could haves". like "if i didnt have diarrhoea i could have gotten straight As."
that i also can say. but it's not as if a fall or a diarrhoea would have robbed your brain of the knowledge.
if you actually sense the utter stupidity in such excuses.

and i abhor the endless questions of why i got a fucking c5.
there are so many reasons why! and people just love asking stupid questions which i hold no answer to.
if i knew the problem, i could have gotten the A i wanted rite?
some people just dont understand and empathise.

neither do they have a brilliant brain to realise that im actually OK.
and they just behave as if im not.
i said im OK im OK. dont sound as if i shouldn't be OK.
im disappointed yes i am. even though i expected it,
it's at the lowest end of my expectations, if u have a fucking fab brain to understand that.
but i told myself i shant let this affect me anyway, anyhow.
simply cos like what i always say,
so long u have the calibre, why the fuck care about what's on the fuckin paper.
and i still have a bright future ahead.

this is just a fucked up hiccup. get it?
10 years later, im going to laugh at As just like how i laugh at the minute accomplishment stemming from PSLE.
as in. what im trying to say,
im moving on from disappointment to the next phase of my life.
to me, A-level result talk is no longer the talk of the town.

and stop trying to guess what the fuck im feelin.
cos noone knows better than i do.
even if u do try to guess.
chances are u made a damn fuckin lousy guess.

and with the reactions i get,
i can easily snap at you with one-liners which i just did today after tolerating till the last straw.
or if it's face to face,
i have no qualms in rolling my eyes at u.
cos i so fucking dont care about what YOU think.
and im just being nice if i havent.

i mean, if i dont even care about what things may seem now
WHY THE EFFING SHIT SHOULD U?
im moving on with life and i think u should.
that's it.

and i was pissed with my granny for saying that i hate her.
because i DONT.
see. im a fucked up misunderstood granddaughter.
she thinks i hate her when i dont.

what else.
some little girl held a hp cam underneath my skirt.
first time, i thought it was an accident but suspicions arose.
and it happened a second time.
yeah what can a little girl do to me?
so fyi, there's a boy standing next to her.
and if that isnt convincing enough,
some illegal societies could have paid them to do that.

that explains why i am darn pissed now.

so there. get over As. it's so fucking over.
stop asking and reacting to my results.
dont blame me if im gonna snap or give my meanest eye-roll.
people have feared it since they saw me roll my eyes.

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 3/06/2005 09:04:00 PM

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(:

i went to church this morning and am going to mich's church next sunday :)

anyway, lately i discovered that there are more people, than what i expected that is, are feeling real dejected at this point of time.

sigh, but let's accept the fact that no jokers are in everlasting joy.
neither are all sad people always sad.

i suppose, i just suppose,
it's how we manipulate our minds to convince ourselves.
or if u'd like, deceive. :)

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 3/06/2005 12:40:00 PM

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:)

i think i more or less know what i want.
just move along with life.
first choice is definitely unpassable but i shall just try.
shamelessly after some encouragement from my uncle :)
who's just like my father! (like how my aunt stands in for my mom.)

oh well. im excited.

HA HA HA.

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 3/05/2005 10:15:00 PM

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complaints.

i am so sorry that i have to let this out.
but i really and i mean, REALLY hate to speak and chat with childish people.
esp guys who are my age and still put :P or :D
or THAT level of sense of maturity just isn't there.
ARGH. it puts me off.
i think that's what MSN's block's for.
i so eFf-ing cant stand them ARGH.
cant they NOT speak like 9 year olds.
super irritated. and there are some u OBVIOUSLY dont like to talk to them
but they still msg u.
ARGH.

im still nice. :)

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 3/05/2005 06:18:00 PM

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i just binged.

binged binged binged i feel like pinchin.
ARGH i knew i'd feel this shit!!! for all the late nite eating
but i still did. u know what was the stupid reason behind it?
it's because i didnt want that stupid pack of prawn crackers to stare at me for the next few days
i decided to just binge on them TONITE.
kill them all before they kill me.
OMG.
i cant believe i just binged on 500+++ kcal shit.
THIS SUCKS.
plus my metabolism rate is decreasing because of this faggot pox im having i cant go out to shake off my FATS!
OH MAN.
that's all the frustration you get when u cant stand yummy food staring at u.

ok on another note,
OMG i think MIKALAH is out to stay for another faggot week.
THIS SUCKS.
hope carrie stays. and MIKALAH OUT. WITH ALOHA.
yeah. i agree with simon. mikalah is only NOT irritating (or rather least irritating) when she is singing
once she opens her mouth and wag that fugly mole of hers,
OMG stab urself with a chopper.
carrie rocks lah.
name your dog MIKA yes?
den who stole your ass's mole away?
MIKA-lah!! (who else)

ok all the shit for eating some fatterning stuff.
and i cant work out cos of the haze and stuff.
plus it's been raining.
oh dear. SANTA JANE is coming to town.
hahaha!

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 3/02/2005 10:55:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets