food for thought.

"And in the end, it is not the years in your life that counts. It is the life in your years that counts." - Abraham Lincoln.

it's not often that i flip and even bother to glance through the orbituary section.
but i fairly bring to memory one day as i honestly read through each column of the orbituary page.
it remains as a comfort to know that many have returned to the Lord
but also, many that didn't. hmm.

but that's not my point here.
as i battle with myself what journalism means to me.
i rejoice in knowing that im closer to finding my stand in the field of journalism.
(not that i really am sure that that's the area i will go into.)
i think, maybe the greatest joy in reading the papers in the morning is to leave with a quote that has struck a chord in my heart, and twisted my braincells for further thought.

that's what journalism means to me. =)

and im glad, that a quote from Abraham Lincoln did just that.
simple yet honest.
truthful and sincere.
and obviously, journalism values need not a living person to bring it out.
but yes, a living brain, a living legacy. well, lincoln isn't alive, is he?

but so often in this world we live in,
our passions are killed by financial, political pressures, especially so in the field of journalism.
i toy with the irony, that journalism brings forth truth.
but what is truth if it's marred by pressures?

talk about objective in objectivity. objective journalism is just another oxymoron.
and oxymorons serve best in grey areas, and that's where the lost world is in, at least to my own senses i believe.

if you wana know what purpose and objective in life is all about.
look to the one who lived a short 33 years
but kept to his purpose all the way.

im not going to say that he left behind a legacy even though he's dead.
because that would have been a lie.

the fact remains as that he is alive.
and so as it is with the truth.

he is the way the truth the life.
=)

all these thoughts started with a good read at the orbituary.
i left with a great quote..
orbitrary- try spending a read there.

u might find yourself a little wiser.

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 10/31/2005 11:28:00 AM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

=)

had a great chat with mich last nite. really miss u girl =)
and it never fails to put me to a still point to realise how great God is.
how He has His own righteous fair means to judge
even though sometimes i dwell in my own baffles, in my own grumbles.

and to know that mich comes from north, and i come from south.
or if u like, she from east and i from west.
you get what i mean... we're just like total opposites
but somehow God drew us together...

i struggle to do my school work.
she struggles to read her bible.
yet God still has mercy on both of us.
i mean......God just has His ways of rewarding...

for some of us we gotta work hard in school
for some of us we don't
not because anyone's smarter
but cos God's so much in control...
hai dunoo how to explain
im pretty much at a struggle myself
seems like when i study i don't do as well as when i don't.

sometimes i can't help but question why i am born in singapore
when my character is so not singaporean
hai! wo zhen de bu zhi dao...

now i just can't wait for my hols to come =)
den can go play games like street soccer!!!!! and erm, netball!!!!!!!!! :) :) :) :)
den can burn off all the flabbbbbsss whee. but that's beside the point
it's games it's fun =)))

maybe i should take comfort in that i am just different
just as everyone else is.
but i just can't agree with classification theory.
cos classification only brings more division.
it does make life simpler, but it doesn't make it more beautiful.

sometimes the best lessons or rather, most of the time,
aren't learnt from books.

when Einstein had E=mc^2, everyone thought he's mad
but his never-say-die attitude lives on.
maybe u call this blind comfort to a girl who just wants to find excuse not to study
shrugs
im not saying it's not

but at least i know my brain's alive even if i dont get the As
what's the use to have a brain that's full of As but does not ace.

of course, it's best to have both.
i'll think about that next time.

(:

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 10/29/2005 10:02:00 AM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

what's so funny!?

the funny thing is how us, people expect God to be predictable
when we're talking about a creative God.

hello?
He's the Creator, RIGHT?

and true enough, disappointment aside for the assignment i got a shit 11/20 for
i realised i got a 14/20. and the 14 came from the first time i handed in.
so im getting an average of 13.

am i not trusting a miracle working God?
but anyway, i still have to work hard ok.
jane jane cannot slacK!

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 10/25/2005 05:40:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

now i know why...

now i know why it's good and perhaps, important to keep track of your thoughts
because when one day you look back,
you might just realise that your zest for that first love has simmered.
and when that longing to rekindle that first love comes.
somehow your heart just fills itself or rather God will fill it for that matter
with a warmth of joy, tranquility of peace.

and of course, everything happens for a reason.

"For if a man think himself to be something, when he is nothing, he deceiveth himself. But let every man prove his own work, and then shall he have rejoicing in himself aloine, and not in another. for every man shall bear his own burden." - Galations 6:3-5

with competition comes pride. not in oneself but pride against others.
i would think... that's bad.

jane u gotta hear tt =")
just be happy in and with your lot!

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 10/25/2005 08:19:00 AM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

God is soooo good! *two thumbs up!*

you know what happened? ah! you don't?
you do? no you don't! only me and my Lord knows!
whee!
my dad was fetching me home and i was just thinking
"i wanna drive" but it just didn't seem like my dad was even contemplating to let me drive.

so what i do? whee. i prayed!
i just told my Best Friend i wanted to drive so if it's safe for me to drive,
just let me drive~! but i was ready for a 'no'.
and i dint wanna ask my dad straight in the face to let me drive!
thinking that the last time(or rather, that was my first time really!) i drove
i was a terror on the road cos i basically drove at 50 km/h on a highway.

ok laugh laugh laugh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*malu*
that was my first time and i just went to highway liaoz.
must must must thank God He kept me protected!
so many cars that nite lohs!

anyway when i went back to the car after picking some books from home,
my dad just asked me if i wanted to drive?!!?!?!?!?!?!?!??!!
GOD is so so so so so goooooooood!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE*

and today i got improve... 70km/h about 80...
(dun laugh liao k) a few more times can speed liaoz!
hehhehehehehhehehehehehehe

and besides this yes i must thank Him for His protection.
cannot take it for granted, as if God owes us anything, or simply another day to live.

but anyway, He is good, very very good, all the time?
yes all the time!
thank Him for my church =)

J'adore les gens. =)
i hope i got that rite. it means i adore the people.
God's people. =) need i explain more?

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 10/23/2005 09:24:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

what a wonderfully crafted day

it never fails to amaze me how God grants me His peace
out of His grace, and out of His mercy.

Another day spent in relaxation:
in front of my comp reading articles and testimonies
at my piano playing songs and singing to it

to the world, i may have accomplished nothing
i have not studied a single bit
im running behind my exam revision schedule.

but to ask me to do those things without conviction
and just to please my own stupid will
to want to win my peers

i say i say, it's all foolish.
because in the first place,
my heart desires are already not right.

so let and allow me to spend this day
in tranquility
in peace
in joy
in security
in the gifts God has given me.

For i must remember that the LORD is my shepherd.
For i must remember that the LORD loves me.
and i must respond to this love
not by just merely murmuring an "I love you"

but to truly mean it from the depths of my heart.

and even so, how am i to even decide if im true?
thank God He knows my heart better than I do.
How is it that a confused being can be sober to know what he/she is doing

Can we proclaim that we know ourselves better than God does?
We just cant.
Simply because we did not create ourselves but only God did.
just like can i say i know my car well better than the manufacturer? i can't.
and can the manufacturer say he knows his product best? he can't.
because everything comes from God.
even the wisdom to create and invent things.

I miss this feeling of not being caught up in the bustle and hustle of worldly pursuits.
What's a college degree if one has not the knowledge of the book of unchallenged wisdom?

I like this feeling.

i may have done nothing to do.
but i have gained something.
just as something cannot come from nothing,
the "something" i gained today obviously did not come from the things i do.
and indeed, by His grace i live yet another day.
and He renewed His kingdom in my heart.

that's more important than any other readings i have to do.
forget about singapore society, forget about the hutchins commission, forget about press freedom, forget about journalism, forget about advertising, forget this, forget that...

but remember...



don't forget God.
that's the biggest folly.

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 10/22/2005 08:00:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

"MY PRETTY GIRL" (so bhb!!!!)

she asked me for that title!
SOH XIN JIE!

she asked for this! hahaha

"got write about me or not?"

"err. *thinks* no..."

"huh................................. :( :( :( :( (figuratively)"

"write one for you now lah!~"


here it is.=))))





*huGs (after much thought and deliberation.)

muHAHAHA!

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 10/14/2005 06:05:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

Thank You =)

Lord, I got what I wanted. Thank You for I know I wouldn't and couldn't have done it without You.

A simple heartfelt thank you to You, my shepherd. Thank You so much for Your faithfulness...

I Love You =)

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 10/14/2005 01:03:00 AM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

thanks ab (:

just wanna thank my roommate :)
have learnt that i must think through decisions carefully.
that's smth i learn. (:

thanks for keeping me balanced my dear! :)
hope i can rekindle my enthusiasm for my hall =)

it will come. it will come. :)
thank God. im sure something beautiful came out of this :)

im really blessed!
really really am.

all the friends i have. =)

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 10/13/2005 03:22:00 AM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.

i seriously am baffled.
seriously amused.
seriously stressed.
when i dont believe in stress.
i believe in motivation but not stress.
so what the crap.

im stressed by the fact that im not stressed.

ISN'T LIFE JUST SO SILLY-LY

ironical.

i wanna just float into my own space
learn by my own timing
just give me the materials and i will learn it myself
don't cage me within the scopes of exams
it totally turns me off
YET each day i spend in sch is my mom's money
or rather, God's money
how can i squander it away mindlessly?

you know one thing about sch
i ABSOLUTELY
and i so freaking mean it
i ABSOLUTELY ABHOR HATE
is exams.

just hear my screams.
don't tell me exams make me learn.
i learn best without exams.
i learn best without having people to tell me when my deadline is.
i hate the honours scheme
i hate it.

but still,
i shall persevere.
i shall live it.
i shall conquer it.
i shall win it.
i shall proclaim victory over all.
i shall deny myself and think further than what is apparent.
i shall be the best.
not for the world.
but for Him.

help mee, please (:

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 10/08/2005 07:19:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

a penny of my thoughts.

dont i look nice!
i miss wearing my school uniform.
my nanyang one. my hwachong one.
i miss it, i miss it all.

some memories are just so precious.
so so precious.
yet life's more than just turning back time

still it's fab time to sit back, relax and enjoy the reminiscence of times spent with people who did and DO matter to you.

i need my contact lenses.
im quite sian of wearing specs. HAHAHA. =)
im a typical nerd. but mind you, im atypical nerd.

give me space.

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 10/08/2005 05:29:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

whee =))

good msg today! totally adored it. -grins-
thankss pastor ruth! (though she may not see this but anywaysss.)

so many thoughts just went through my mind.
JEsus lovess uu! and He loves mee too! *grins* so sweet.

i came home i looked at my poooh. and if u actually do catch some photos of this wonderbear on my blog, you'll realise it has a really really cute face, FAT, and always smiling =)

and i always feel quite tickled by its smile. i hit it i sit on it i smack it i kiss it(ok i know this is disgusting but it's really cute!!) i hug it i whack it i pinch it... no matter what i do to it, it just smiles......

and it never fails to remind me that in times of hardships, i should always smile back to my Lord... it's so hard! yeah it's really hard...really hard... but God never puts us through anything more than we can handle and thank Him for that!

When things seem tough, let's remind ourselves that it's because He has faith that we will pull through with Him.... :) :) then that leads me to my decision whether i should send my pooh into exile in my ruthless washing machine.

thank God He is never ruthless with us... heehee

yeah but im so afraid! so scared it will be ripped apart and i'll never see its smile again..

that's why ive decided to wait till i find a good gentle washing machine to send my pooh to exile in.

=) thank Jesus He always takes care of mee :p:p
JEsus never failss. God is love. Love never fails. therefore, God never fails. Jesus is God. Therefore, JEsus never fails.

i hope i can do math this way. multiplication, division, subtraction & addition. all these...kinda suck. it's simpler to look at equal signs. =)

God loves us all the same. equally. He loves you the same way He loves me.. :p
so Hallelujah!! ;p

gonna go pack my room. clear of all the thrash! SLEEP!
write e tribune articles. plan how to study for exams.

STUDY! it's time for discipline.

(grins) Jesus will help me!
wheeee. but i really gotta fart my butt off the chair before anything can get started.
man. why do exams exist....

*mumbles*

*grumbles*

*groans*

stop complaining! let's not make booboos! but if we do, hey we'll call our lifeline...Jesus is just a prayer away! ;p:p

GoodniTE to aLL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *waves*
my poohbear waves too. u don't see it? it's okie. just know it waved to u aiights.

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 10/07/2005 11:33:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

i was sitting by my laptop with sleepy eyes until i read a devotional that mentioned smth about the apostles and their standing up for Christ until they martyred.

i realised the Gospel message didnt come easy. First, Christ died as a perfect sacrifice for our sins and shame- He carried it all, taking the weight of the world upon Him. and this, is the essence of the Gospel that God offers His salvation through only ONE man JEsus Christ...

and even after that, many died for their faith, with only the sole purpose of preserving the message so that at the end of it all, it will be preached to ends of the nations..

it just didnt come easy.. we may not account for the majority of the population in the world...but noone can deny Christ's influence. it's just....

informidable.

simply, because...

He's God. a God that was not made, but the Maker. a God that came not to be served, but to serve. a God that came to save.

a God of love, joy, peace, kindness, patience, goodness, faithfulness, humility, righteousness, holiness...

thank You, Jesus, for bringing me through another day. =) Have You decided if i should live for another day? hahaha. I suppose He knew it loooooooooong looooooooong time ago, my all-knowing God. =)

hugs.

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 10/06/2005 10:29:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

absence makes the heart fonder!

okie i miss gxyz. can't imagine that, they haven't seen me in my braces.
neither have my squadmates. ALL RIGHT i miss u guys too :)

hallelujah! :D

life's a mad rush where we rush like mad.
but if i ever have to rush
i pray im rushing for the right things :)

but even then, even so,
God is always in control.

so sometimes i wonder,

why the rush?
*hmmmmz*

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 10/06/2005 06:17:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

God is good.

and good is nothing more than an understatement
a really really severe understatement.

i should say,
good beyond words.
=)

shall go rest 1st. =D

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 10/06/2005 03:02:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets