sunbird

beautiful rainy night

i always have this urge to stay up and do something i really like in the peace of the night
but aiyo, always end up feeling groggy
=D

anyway, 6H gathering this saturday!!!! *whoohoo*!!!! =))
after sucha loooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooong time. -grins.
and really gotta pack my table and get my stuff tidied up.

im so messy that sometimes it gets on my own nerves.
diao. looking forward to Freedom in Christ lesson tmr!!
*smiles*!

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 11/29/2005 10:43:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

the laughter, the tears.

what a joy to be able to share your thoughts with your Best Friend =)
i haven't done that in a long time...
been questioning about terrorists and stuff... and just led me to tears
just feel quite sad that usually, the oppressors are people who have been oppressed
and they just needed an avenue to vent their frustrations...
but we can't blame them for being who they are right..?

but also, brought to my mind how silly i can be in my thoughts
and i just laugh about it... like gosh
one of the funniest thoughts i ever had is that before i became a christian
i was thinking "wow God must be busy on Sundays... He moves from one church to the other... like 10.30 in one church, 10.31 in another church..."
haha, okay i know that's silly, but now i know that God is omnipresent so,
yeay!

im so silly.
but He loves the silly me. =D

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 11/28/2005 01:24:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

just as i thought the walk was fine
until i saw that there were huge trees before me that blocked my way
but thank God He lifted those trees up
that i dont have to be troubled about crossing that huge hurdle

just as i thought the road would have been cleared
but to realise there's more to it
and all ive gotta do is to really trust that i'm on a journey with a God
who will never leave nor forsake me

my gosh, Lord, please help me with my bible study!
really gonna learn how to interpret the bible correctly

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 11/27/2005 01:17:00 AM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

had a great swim! haha and thank God for the sun! been wanting to get darker
and i think i am ! so yeay!!

you read a biography to know about someone;
you establish a relationship to know someone. =)

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 11/24/2005 06:30:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

this is so beautiful, really!

Asking for Guidance

by Pauline Lamarre

When I meditated on the word guidance, I kept seeing "dance" at the end of the word. I remember reading that doing God's will is a lot like dancing.

When two people try to lead, nothing feels right. The movement doesn't flow with the music, and everything is quite uncomfortable and jerky. When one person relaxes and lets the other lead, both bodies begin to flow with the music. One gives gentle cues, perhaps with a nudge to the back or by pressing lightly in one direction or another. It's as if two become one body, moving beautifully. The dance takes surrender, willingness, and attentiveness from one person and gentle guidance and skill from the other.

When I saw "G," in guidance, I thought of God, followed by "u" and "i." And it hit me: God, let's u (you), and I dance. This statement is what guidance means to me. As I lowered my head, I became willing to trust that I would get guidance about my life. Once again, I became willing to let God lead.

~Pauline Lamarre is married and has three children and three stepchildren who are all on their own. She is grandmother to eight beautiful grandkids. Bowling, walking and family game night are her hobbies.

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 11/24/2005 12:32:00 AM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

hey this book is real cool. i like it. refreshing with various perspectives. and i guess that's very much the element that lacks in the world.

have learnt that this world will be so much better if we could take a look through each other's lenses. but then again, that's tiring. the most straightforward method is to go to the lens that invites nothing but complete love to the eyes.

Take on God's perspectives!

anyway, great great book!!!! and here i am, starting to miss school, yet not so. when school starts, i will have less time to read books i enjoy. then again, miss the times when your thoughts are challenged at a new level. listening to the crap your professor has to say.

shall start doing something constructive. May God bring me through it. -winks-

and yeah, sure He will.

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 11/21/2005 11:29:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

this girl is soooooooooo cute right =) good! my children will be like that (: wheee! she's so adorable!!

anyway, am excited about what's going to happen for the next ____ days. =) i dont exactly know what i mean by ___ but oh well, unpredictability is predictability! or either way, predictability is unpredictability! okay, the latter makes more sense. honestly.

i stopped by the traffic light today. and i took notice of a lady busy adjusting her bicycle to a parallel position so that it would not obstruct the paths of oncoming vehicles. the lady was fumbling with her bic, but it's no wonder. she had to do it quick, fast to avoid any possible accidents. then, i looked up. and i realised, it was a red man.

then i looked at my own life. so many times, it was a red light. or for that matter, i hardly sought God in those decisions to even discern red or green in the first place. then midway through these things, i stop and i fumble. and in the end, i dont get to the destination faster than any one else. if i waited for the green man, i would have reached.

safer, and definitely on time.

just a little reflection on my little life. =) and not too much of a glorious day. i kinda yelled at my granny. it's those things u know u shouldnt be doing but u just let your SELF get in the stupid way. and indeed, i thought about it. it's so silly to be yelling away just because my granny switched off my laptop without proper shut down for the nth time.

sometimes, it's just so frustrating to repeat and repeat and repeat and repeat and repeat and repeat and YES, ENOUGH. stop repeating "repeat" RIGHT? i was so frustrated i hugged my stupid pooh so tight and i just screamed. not too much of self control there. when ive had enough of my tantrums, i withdrew to my piano and just started singing.

and as i take a step back to examine, there you go. the patience of God.

my inadequacy falls short of His glory. falls short of His abundant patience. that's why i need Him.

so does everyone else... even if you're going to try to hide from it. one day u're just gonna give up hiding from Him. like me.

and of course, like many others =)

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 11/21/2005 09:11:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

yup this is Professor Pooh who graduated with a PhD in sleeping.

*hurhur*

anyway. yup it's so cute. and thank and praise God serene got saved today!! =)

just as i needed the joy God gave it again.....been really tired man

ah! happy =) anyway. pooh's happier though. he's really glad being a sleepy professor. oh wells.!

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 11/20/2005 11:15:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

with peace i leave with u.

no idea why that title. but yep, it's one of those days
you're so overwhelmed by the thoughts that race through your mind
you just cant get to sleep. or rather, you just dont want to get to sleep.

my God honoured His word. my cries to Him to not put me through tests during the exam period were faithfully answered. and it's come a time when He put to light my thoughts that simply are not glorifying to His holy name.

but all the more am i convinced that to call ourselves "Christian" is more than giving ourselves a label. it's so so much more than that. it's not an identity you put on for show. but for whatever reason we came to God for, God knows. and noone can hide from His omniscience. try as we may, our efforts will be futile.

but He did not leave me there to dwell in the lies of the devil which came with self-condemnation. He offered His hands so i could be in touch with His gentleness once again. So much a love to give and for me, His child to take. it's just times like these u cant help but tear at how awesome a God you serve.

sin is not something we can continue to live in. and true indeed, the moment u sin, u're out of Christ. that's why it's a daily walk with the Lord. and there you go, i DONT believe in the once-saved-always-saved thinking that all you need to do to get to heaven is to say the sinner's prayer. at the end of the day, God knows the condition of our heart.

and ive learnt not to mock at Him. and don't cheapen the cost of His blood. don't cheapen the value of Jesus' death at the cross. dont. dont make a joke out of it by ignoring His word and continuing in our own ways...

brought to my mind is the verse about the fact that the vine can be cut away any time. (Romans 11:21-22)

gonna start reading Yancey's book on the Jesus i never knew =)

even though it's painful, i thank God for checking my heart (: and i know He disciplines me because He loves me =) and i thank Him for restoring me

behind each tear, there's a story to be told.
behind each story, there's a testimony to be told.
behind each testimony, there's the glory of God to be revealed.
praise GOD :)

thank You JesUs (:

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 11/18/2005 03:25:00 AM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

grumbless..

nonononono NOT going to buy those DIY dyes.
it's a utter waste of money. and it could have been better spent.
*arghs.

but exams are over =)

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 11/14/2005 11:57:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

no matter what

no matter what we do, it's always inadequate
no matter how we do, there's always the imperfections
no matter when we do, we may not be at the perfect timing
no matter why we do, our reasons may not be the purest
no matter where we do, we may just be at the wrong place
no matter who we meet, we may end up in grumbles

we are hard to please
so are others
and living in the world of bipolarity
one thing i dont understand

why some things are absolute and men can't accept
and we choose to fight in the grey area

when will we realise that no matter how hard we fight in the grey area
it's still grey. it doesnt change anything. efforts? zilch.

i think time could have been better spent.
just look to the needy and start counting our blessings today.
stop fighting about who's right and who's wrong.

we try so hard to compare ourselves to the standards of the grey world
and can we say that "oh this grey is whiter than that grey."

in comparison to the purest of all,
everything else is just filth.

no wonder God's Word says there's none righteous.
noone. no matter.

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 11/08/2005 01:18:00 AM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

my best friends and i

Throughout the years
I have had many different girls and women as my best friends.
They have all been very different from each other.
Yet somehow they have all been similar.
They had characteristics that blended with mine.
They were kindred spirits with me --
they were truly the soulmates of my life.

Together, these best friends and I
have laughed, cared, talked, listened, and cried.
Together we played, worked, and dreamed.
Such special friends were they, that at times,we enjoyed doing nothing together.

Years have gone by
and I sometimes wonderwhere they have all gone.
Some have moved.
Some developed different interests
.These were friends whom
I once thoughtI could never live without.

The best friends of my life
have had an integral part
in me becoming who I am today.
They brought out the best and the worst in me.
They loved me enough to confront,
to challenge and to console.
They encouraged me in my strengths andhelped me overcome my weaknesses.

Though I know not where they live,
have discovered where they all left something for me.It is a room --
a delightful room which lies within my heart.

It is one of my most favorite places.
I go there when I am lonely, sad
or when I want to remember...
and be withthe treasured golden memories
the best friends of my life left for me.

Forever --
my friends will be a part of me
as I hold onto and cherish them
in that special room in my heart.

- Karen Schnent

beautiful poem =)
and good youth service msg today.

blessed blessed blessed! :)

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 11/05/2005 12:19:00 AM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

im one of the happiest girl

051103_204558
Originally uploaded by jarnei.

HAHAHA.

cos i've got friends as silly as i am to do all sorts of nonsense.

nonsense nonsense nonsense! :D

okiess im gonna be happier now-
off to read max lucado's
No Wonder They Call Him Savior.
=))

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 11/04/2005 11:37:00 AM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

wheee =)

im a day closer to my exams!
and a day closer to its end =)

i shall try to be enthusiastic cos im here to learn! :)

i think i cried while reading an article at columbia journalism review
and sparked off this whole idea of war reporting.
anyway, i never liked wars and i wont endorse wars.

sometimes i really wonder if it's good to live in idealism hahaha
i mean, good thing is that it provides hope
bad thing is idealist tend to live in their own world with irregards to reality.
and im just amused=)
because as much as there is an idealist, there will always be a realist.
where the idealist will laugh at the realist and the realist will laugh at the idealist!
LOL.
that's the way we keep ourselves in check isn't it haha =)

all the little big quirks in life that shows forth human character.
=)

and sometimes i think any jobs, we've gotta spare ourselves from being jaded.
and accepting the way things are. like i always believe
stagnancy is danger as one day it may bring forth complacency.
but the challenge is always to keep the first love/passion.

maybe for once, im REALLY optimistic about not reading too much of my notes.
i just become confused and too conscious.

it's good to read and then think. but if im going to realise that i've mindlessly bought the ideas that spells "oh that's just the way the world is..." then it's a no no =)

i love learning especially

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 11/01/2005 08:27:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets