thankful. thankful. thankful.

i am so thankful to GOD for everything. each step that He's guided since the birth of the idea of going to Gen12 trip up till NOW, the even of departure.

have no idea what to expect
but i know GOD is so faithful, and so good...

even when i was fearful last night because of a certain happening i nv expected would happen. i heard something i never heard before and it freaked me out. but i know GOD allowed it to come to pass for a reason. that i will trust in Him and Him alone. that i will seek my strength from JESUS, and JESUS alone.

and i thank GOD so much that there are always sisters and brothers around who will support u...thank u sister kris and amanda and family for interceding. thank u for ur obedience to the burden GOD has placed in ur heart.... =)

thankew pastor ruth for coming to commissioning. very very sweet of u.even though prayer meeting starts at 6AM tmr morning and after a tiring day.

im so thankful.

may You Lord prepare me to be a blessing to many others. love You.

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 5/22/2006 11:08:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets

im in awe of You, Lord

finally it's been a long time since i blogged...
but tonight is such a beautiful time learning more about the Bible
and it just sparks off a yearning more of GOD.....
of His Word... of wow, so many hidden treasures in His Word...
and i so so want to attend the 2 week bible school...to have a foretaste of what it is....

the beauty of Old Testament, the richness of grace in New Testament
the sparkling snippets of how future is like in Revelations
i used to see it as a scary thing
but somehow i thank God because i know He has redeemed me
and i so hope that my friends will be brought to repentence through God's goodness...

i can only conclude, and this itself is an understatement for i can never really conclude anything,
nonetheless, how much treasures there are in the Bible...
so much you won't believe it
if only we'd take the initiative and allow GOD to draw ourselves nearer to Him
to read the Bible and interact with it
each single word, even each Capital Letter...each punctuation...
i mean wow...

im so in awe.............................
and this is beyond any strong reasoning for the reliability of the New Testament or the Bible itself
because this awe brings me to realise.. it's just so impossible for mere mortal men to conjure up an amazing piece of literature...
but it doesnt just stop there being a literature..
it is a book that will transform your life.

a collection of history, recordings of the past, lessons to live the present, guidance to each next step, and a glimpse into the future... it's everything...
how much more can we ask of GOD when He's already given us His word...
His love... His everything...

i thank so much that God sent brother raju to share with us so much about the bible
so many things were made real
so many new discoveries...i just felt that GOD has blessed me richly with so much amazing things about Him...........

i just feel so blessed...and as i look back
i didn't pay anything for it.

it's undeserving...but im so in awe
so in awe i could dream of JESUS i never want to wake up.

and been thinking so much about this qn Ps. Susan challenged us with
"Can we change our destiny?"
im still thinking. and im so hoping GOD will reveal Himself more to me...
the last time i thought deeply was about if we can lose our salvation......
now, can we change our destiny?

and i just realise so much so much.......
what's my destiny??!!
if i know that the end of the road will be that i will see my Savior, my beautiful Savior,
what is the world's strife about?
will i be able to look into His eyes knowing ive done my best for Him
FOR HIM. not for myself.

it's such a beautiful truth, yet so hard to live it out.

im so filled in awe.....i can't describe it...
and i really think that's how God's love is,
and most possibly so much more immense than what im feeling now

im fearfully and wonderfully made
but i wonder why fearfully? i can understand wonderfully
but why fearfully?
why should the GOD of heavens and earth fear as He makes us?
haven't He all the control????
and i sit by, wondering in my small little ways,
if it's because as we're made, GOD had really bore Himself vulnerable to the chance that we will not choose Him...

He'll be making someone so He can love, yet risking not to be loved back.
so in Him there's a fear... not a fear born out of His inability for He is always able and can never fail, but a fear that's born out of love... love for mankind...

and i felt so weak.....i felt so loved.....and i guess that's how GOD wants us to feel
HE died so we could draw close to Him... yet why so many times we fall into the pit of trying to act like we can handle it, even when we're in front of Him... im so thankful He's let me see the weakness in myself...the front i try to put before Him..

yet so much so much i can find in His grace...He's someone who had all the power in the world...
but He chose to give us a choice...and to think of things,
as of now, i actually do think we can change our destiny.. yes im so very much still in thoughts..

im so blessed im lost for words... yet at the same time so afraid...so challenged that i really have to walk closely with GOD...because i've learnt at a newer, fresher level, the importance of walking in truth in our lives, for deception is scary.

deception is powerful because you never know when u're deceived when u're already deceived. yet it comes so subtly.......

but i must know that GOD's grace is always sufficient for me.

i love You ... dun ever wanna lose You

caught Jane Xie> day-dreaming at 5/05/2006 11:55:00 PM

life's a dream with its sunrises and sunsets